but that's not the mood i'm in

there's such a distinct difference
in what i felt
in the texture
in the timbre
it's like it wasn't even me
although, painfully clearly, it was me

and
i feel like
a completely different person
and, too
i feel like who i am now
relates in a way i don't understand
to things that seem
in retrospect
not to make much sense

why
if i felt these things
did i do the things i did
and
you seem different now
how much of that is you
how much of that is me

how much of that have you gone through

like
did you go through this whole same process
and then
all the other crazy life stuff you've gone through
how jumbled up with that am i

i'm sorry
i just had this whole panoramic thing
and it's blowing my mind a little


continuing....