is really helpful I guess it's that touch grass thing
and the movement meditation
and whatever else
it doesn't help to practice scenarios for the future or to ruminate on the past
ya just gotta
HAVE the ADVENTURE
the stuff that GETS you is NEVER what you THINK
and SURE part of THAT
is the SAME thing as WHY it's always the LAST place you LOOK because
-- WHEN
you FIND it
you QUIT looking
I WATCHED
the REFLECTION
of a TREE
LONG ENOUGH that I was SURE I could
DESCRIBE
it didn't dance or bob or shimmer or undulate
there was MOVEMENT
ACROSS the
SURFACE
of the pool
the TREE
didn't move
the image
CHANGED
by the COLORS of the environment
the BLUE of the pool
the GOLD of the
LIGHT
the TREE washed out -- ABSTRACTED
SEEMED
PROJECTED
onto
metallic
GLOW
& I started to match an artist or style
THEN
I remembered being held down
trying to get to the surface
deborah was angry
NO
had forgotten about
THAT
weren't we on a
BE HERE
NOW
I breathed
I watched
I noticed
my shoulders were reasonably low
