I had decided not to
listen to them
TODAY
I decided
to STICK to THAT
BUT
I also had a headache
& I decided not to go to work club
I was KINDA off
probably on a spiraling loop
BUT -- low key
I'm not quite where I'd like to be
SANITY wise
& I couldn't articulate
I FEEL too MUCH to feel like I can LET myself feel
I'm noticing that I'm not feeling
ANGER
which would be appropriate
SO
I think I must have THAT just
SHUT DOWN
the pink and green
touched me
somehow
& I thought about guantanamo*
*I feel like I should say something else after that but I don't know what else to say
