I had a song stuck in my HEAD
I was trying to describe it to you, I think, but I don't think I did a good job
& I couldn't find it
well
I heard it today
& my phone
told me
classical gas
I can't remember the context
there's this negative thing I do
I get irritated and biased
& I say mean things
mostly
in my HEAD
EXCEPT
for the screaming at the television
THAT
is aloud
BUT
the person I'm saying it to
can't hear me
I think I at least almost always know that I'm doing the negative thing
& SOMETIMES it
becomes
my ridiculous
"they are SO whatever whatever"
about someone every other person on earth likes
HUGELY FAMOUS
JUST for whatever reason set my teeth on edge
SOMETIMES
I get overly critical of something
in a "what, am I supposed to be impressed"
with something
that I normally do or would like
& again it's really just
MOOD
MOOD
BUT
this kind doesn't usually
SET IN
when the mood is gone
I am usually able to see whatever it is
OBJECTIVELY
& SOMETIMES
I think
I'm just being dismissive
of something
to keep from getting attached
or whatever
when I'm negative with myself
it's pretty brutal
negative self talk
I'd say that is the one that
is most trouble for me
& I feel like
I'm not really doing it
CURRENTLY
maybe I'm
going easy on myself
