I slept late
I ordered food again
I WANTED
a po boy
BUT
I talked myself down
to
buffalo crawfish salad
from ragin cajun
I LOVE you VERY much 💋
I wanted to SAY
SOMETHING
meaningful
BUT
I don't SEEM to be
managing to do THAT
I'm not depressed
I'm working through some stuff
in my HEAD
BUT
I'm not SPRINGING into
ACTION
I need to sleep
I have lost
SOME
weight
my face looks BETTER to me
& I don't feel puffy
BUT
I MEAN not a LOT
of weight
I'm trying to
FEEL like myself in a way that EXTENDS
OUTWARD from myself
my mother texted me earlier
that it's Houston restaurant weeks
& then she's like
SO
LOOK on there
& PICK places you want to go
PLEASE & THANK YOU
BUT
their website is terrible for that
SO
after a few attempts
I'm LIKE
yeah, Joyce's is on the list
THEN
hours LATER she sends me a text
???
to which I reply ???
I guess it was a work project
COMPILE a REPORT
& I guess it was
DUE
I'm LIKE
Joyce's
she's like, yeah but we go there already
I'm LIKE
then pick some places you want to go
I have only ever gone to places I already liked
or places I specifically wanted to try
& not even that much of that
it's just not much of an
EXCITEMENT
for me
I'm trying to get myself to
MAKE FOOD
I'm just
not that into it
I've never really been that into it
it's a good program
BUT
it's a three course meal that usually includes
DESSERT
& I don't really want that for lunch
ya KNOW
I want to go to the AUTOMAT
the IDEA that I'm supposed to spend a bunch of time using their "search tool" to find every
WHAT
every place nearby
every place
I'M interested in
because she's gonna love all my sushi choices
my vegetarian choices
I'm LIKE
NOT interested in THAT
when we were in Austin
I asked her if she would be okay with a vegetarian restaurant & she's like yeah
SO
we went to mr natural
which had a BIG
LIKE three feet high
RIGHT NEXT to us on the wall
💯 VEGETARIAN
& she goes to order the mr natural burger
& she's ASKING the waitress
if it's ORGANIC BEEF
yeah, it's not any kind of beef
we are 💯 VEGETARIAN
I remembered
at st*rb*cks when we would go to leadership
they would tell us to bring all this
STUFF
compiled reports
for break out sessions
& at first I DID
BUT
nobody else seemed to
& I could pretty much
RATTLE that stuff
OFF from memory
ANYWAY
SO
I stopped doing the pre-work
& it was completely
NO BIG DEAL
I KINDA
took her
ASSIGNMENT
like that
I feel like
COMPILE a list for me
of places I would like to go
is bullsh*t make work
& THAT was WAY MORE thought
than I wanted to spend
BUT
there you go
goodnight sweetheart ☄️
🫶 🫶 🫶 👾🫚🍀🔥🫶🫶🫶
