well
I'm not actually
UP
I've been AWAKE about half an hour
I woke up to pee
a while back
& have had
substack
on my
PHONE
but just now read it
I remember
years ago
you trying to tell the story
& no one would shut up
I could FEEL
the EXCITEMENT
the mixture of
little boy
& lifelong
& JUST
HAPPY
the WHOLE soup
that you were
BURSTING
to tell
which
in itself
WAS ABSOLUTELY a THING
& the perception
they don't care about this
the irritation, the partial shut down
I wanted to hear it
BUT
I guess I was
out voted
SO
I was super happy
when I got to
hear about it, later
it was LIKE
FINALLY
I been
WAITING a while to get THIS
& it makes me
HAPPY
to hear it
AGAIN
I can't think of a
concomitant
experience
from my own life
SOMETHING
that CONNECTS
to my life
in so many ways
ACROSS
TIME
MAYBE
I'm just being
OBTUSE
& there IS such an event
BUT
I can't THINK of it
I have always had
KINDA
an AVERSION to
MEETING
LIKE
for a long stretch
anne rice
was KINDA a hero to me
BUT
I wouldn't
GO
see her at book signings
because I didn't WANT
REALITY to
INTERFERE
PLUS
there's SOMETHING about
the being a FAN
headspace
that I find
VAGUELY uncomfortable
THAT
MAYBE
doesn't make sense either
I LOVE you VERY much 🫶 🫶 🫶
& I'm GLAD you have
friends who
LOVE you
& COULD
GIVE
you something
SO
MEANINGFUL
in such a
COOL
CASUAL
WAY
