Tuesday, April 8, 2025

I'm not sure 
HOW 
well I think therapy went 

I was explaining 
HOW 
I've been working myself around 
to actually get some stuff 
DONE
&
HOW 
DEMORALIZING it is
to not be able 
to get
SOMETHING 

from my
mom
EMOTIONALLY
OR
I'm not even sure what to call it 

AND
how great I have been feeling 
& HOW 
there's this
SHADOW of flying to bits
that I'm looking away 
FROM

he's LIKE 
you have anxiety 

& I'm LIKE 
I didn't 
ORIGINALLY think so
BUT 
when I got off antidepressants 
the TENSION 
in my neck and shoulders made it clear

BUT
I actually think NOW 
it's a function of 
the whole
ADHD 
thing

I told him 
ABOUT the
FORGIVENESS thing

he said we were going to follow-up 
BUT 
I don't remember 
on WHAT, nor will he
AND
I FEEL vaguely unsatisfied with THAT 

& WONDER 
HOW 
COULD I be SEEing THIS different