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in FACT

I've been going

OVER it

& I FEEL like

I maybe covered some important stuff 

in HOW I

FEEL 

ABOUT her

BUT 

I'm not sure if I made it CLEAR

HOW uncomfortable I AM 

WITH those FEELINGS 

I didn't SAY THIS in therapy 

& it is an IMPORTANT 

POINT 

in RELATION to the 

FORGIVENESS 

QUESTION 

you gotta STOP doing 

THE THING 

AND

CHEAP JOE'S

is CLOSING 

I'm sad

it's one of my FAVORITE art supply places

JOE died not that long ago

BUT 

I thought it had been at least a year

SO

I figured if they were CLOSING because of that 

I would have seen SOMETHING before now

SO

I don't want to SPECULATE

JOE'S brushes are REALLY good 

I have SOME 

& I had some I was PLANNING to get 

SOMEDAY 

TURNED OUT 

TODAY was 

SOMEDAY 

it was 

KINDA

SAD

BUT 

it's a good set of brushes 

when I take travel brushes on the road

I usually take the

TINTORETTO six*

*an Italian made synthetic squirrel

& the pseudo sable six*

*cheap joe makes the pseudo sable I don't know what sable is like but this stuff has great control and not too much spring, you can lay down a smooth wash and do some detail too

cheap joe

OR 

his German manufacturer 

makes the smoothest

WASH

I WANTED the SIX quill & the set of three mottlers

just got the three inch mottlers

NO maybe I decided two inch

it was like that

I WANTED 

SURFACES

BUT 

I had to make SURE 

I got the

BRUSHES

I'm REALLY 

EXCITED 

to be

GETTING them

it'll be a while 

they are

getting a BIG response from 

I guess everyone wanting to stock up

so expect delay

their message was

reminiscent of 

the calvert woodley farewell email

then I saw an AD for a perfume 

CALLED 

HOT CAKES

for some reason 

I FEEL like 

THIS

is SOMEHOW emblematic

of JUST HOW 

OUT of STEP

I AM

with the current

WHATEVER 

you call it

HOT CAKES

AND

pink pony girl back at you