I didn't do the
PLAN thing
I couldn't
reconcile the idea that I couldn't
REALISTICALLY
make a reasonable plan
that would have me
clear the area
BUT
I WANTED to
clear the area
I thought maybe
I UNREASONABLY
could
I ALSO
couldn't really make a plan
for STUFF
EVERYWHERE
SO
I've just been zoning
& thinking about
the relationships I had with the people who
WORKED for me
& the WEIRD thing, maybe
I ALWAYS thought
it was because
I made sure
they got
what they needed from me
BUT
when I was managing the wine
I had people who assisted me
BUT
I didn't technically have
any power over them
& I didn't have any
power to do
ANYTHING
BUT
TONY was all telling me
they would argue with him
tell him I had said
so and such
that he wasn't
SURE they
UNDERSTOOD
WHO was
the
BOSS
BUT
he wasn't ANGRY about that
he SAID it was
proof of my
LEADERSHIP skills
& I should be a supervisor
& the people who
DON'T like me
REALLY
REALLY
DON'T
like me
thought I'm usually not SURE WHY
