ANXIETY
about
DISASTER
from every direction
I MEAN
he's not even in charge yet
I HAVE to
figure out
HOW
NOT
to SPIRAL
down the spiral
MAYBE
I'm doing worse than I thought
DID I
stay in bed EXTRA today
BECAUSE
I could do that extra self care
OR
am I
TAKING
to my bed
AM I
a RELIABLE narrator
I THINK that I AM
and I think I was holding it at bay
and at this moment I'm not so much
there's SOMETHING going on with the water
and there was no notification
or anything, but it seems like they might be working on it
SO
they water might go OFF
& I haven't
BATHED in a WHILE
SO
I'm gonna
SHOWER
at NIGHT
which I NEVER do, and which FEELS
IMPOSSIBLE
it's 11:11 as I write this: impossible
I used the LAST of my
EXUVIENCE
and
the store where I buy it is
OUT
I am going
RIGHT NOW
to take a shower
I LOVE you 🫶
