I'm in the bathroom
I don't think I made much sense
last night
I also have
BREAKOUTS
& the old woman energy
was in the meeting
I was NOT
in a be amongst the humans
kind of mood
I hung on
BUT
I wasn't friendly and effervescent
BUT
there was a certain amount of
DEAR GOD
I'm old too
I mean
I don't FEEL
EMOTIONALLY old
OR
INTERESTS old
SO
I guess
there was some
CONSIDERATION of my own
MORTALITY
BUT
MOSTLY
I was just like
F*CK
I don't enjoy old women
as a group
any more than I enjoyed young women
as a group
the one I used to work for
who I was working to
get her a day off
MOSTLY
she's
in charge of the artists group now
& she's LIKE
none of the guest list emails have been entered
Bob sent out emails
BALL DROPPED
well the thing isn't happening for a couple weeks
the last three open studios
takes it back to BEFORE PORTLAND
I'm sure it wouldn't take
MORE than
an hour or two
to enter ALL of it
JUST DO IT
there's plenty of TIME
maybe it makes a difference
MAYBE not
BUT
why PLAN to FAIL
I seem not to have drawn any
CHORES
& I thought about
VOLUNTEERing to do it
BUT
the IDEA of having to
coordinate
a computer thing
with her
I don't care enough to deal with THAT
I really hope
my judging thoughts were
NOT visible
I get TWO feedbacks typically
I can read everything on your face
I can't read anything on your face
& I'm NOT sure
if that's
SITUATIONAL
or WHAT
HORMONES are
WEIRD
if they don't resolve
into BLOOD
WTF is even going on
I hope you are having a beautiful day sweetheart 🫶 I LOVE you VERY much 🫶
