good night sweetness

i hope your day was awesome and beautiful
and filled with all the joys of nature

i had somebody telling me
that i seem saner
calmer
and
less likely to take things personally
than i was just a few years ago

and
i think that's directly relatable to you

i've had to deal with a lot of emotions
i've had to not take an awful lot of stuff personally
and etc, in order to love you
and
since not loving you didn't seem to be an option
i guess i grew into a calmer more together person
to deal with you
my adorable little pain in the ass

also
i think
i am becoming the person i want to be for you
if that makes any sense
it's like
because i truly believe that you love me
i'm more solid
need less from anyone or anything else
does that make sense to you

i'm not sure it makes any sense

but
i'm better with you

i can tell you've changed
but
i wouldn't presume
i think there are a lot of factors there

but to me
you seem more confident
i won't say younger, exactly, but more vital
more like you're riding a wave
and it might just be that things are going better for you
but
i like to think
it makes me happy to believe
that i make you feel better about yourself
give you at least a little of that confidence
even if it's from a distance

i love you  מותק