omg weird dreams, but i can only remember bits

the first time i woke up
i remember thinking:
those were really strange bad dreams

but i went back to bed
because i felt unwell
and didn't have to get up

[except that
now that i work a regular schedule
for the first time in my life
if i sleep late
i tend to have trouble going to sleep]

i really don't like the regular schedule much
i know i should

anyway
i went back to sleep

and i dreamed
i had gone home to my family estate
which was in, i don't know, italy maybe
it was out in the country
and there wasn't much to identify which country
but the impression i get is italy

i was younger than i am
and beautiful in a dark and wispy way
and i had a what, lover, i'm not sure
he was impressive, for sure

and
i was thinking i was going to live in this apartment
kind of separated from the rest of the estate, practically
like a separate entrance, etc
and the workers were building this barrier
using metal plates
which said something about laundry
like panels from a washateria

and
i thought:
hey, that's kinda ugly
but then i just started thinking
how i could paint them, or whatever

but then
it turned out that i couldn't have the apartment
and it didn't look like happily ever after was coming
easily
or
any time soon

there was more
lots more
lots of little subtle things
that might have held the key
but i can't remember them