well. i'm seriously considering throwing the lightning card away

i've been getting lightning
again and again
sometimes
when i ask a specific question
it won't show up
but it's just a few down
and
i gotta be honest
i thought it was probably to do with us, somehow
so
i asked question after question
and it would all be rosy, except
except for the lightning

but
this morning
my stepfather
who had been mending nicely
through the woods for sure by now
just slumped over drinking coffee
and when my mother found him he was dead

he's dead
so i helped my mom with the funeral home and stuff
but
she's pretty tore up

maybe i shouldn't have told you
maybe it will make you
less happy

but
it shouldn't
it's ok

i love you