i hope you're ok...i have had a strange day...

i got a weird paper cut

i think i've lost an earring

i had the distinct feeling that something happened
with you
at
about 4:30p

and
ash wednesday
always takes me by surprise

it never sinks in
i'm always restraining myself from saying:
ya got some schmutz on your head
because
surely they know
and then i'm all like:
yeah yeah i remember now, ash wednesday
what's that about

i get lent
that makes sense
i just don't get the schmutz thing

but
i guess
maybe one side effect of being raised without religion
is that i don't see that kind of stuff the way
i guess
most people do
i tend to like ritual-type-things
to really engage something

or
to my mind
skip it
it's the connection that matters
not the rote expression of the thing

and
i don't mean to be picking on christians
although, really, i'm sorta fine with that, in general
and
i guess
if i look at it another way
it marks them
as the kind of person who would get up and go to mass
before work or school, which might, afterall, be a stigma for some

i don't know
i don't like it
i only saw one or two today
but it threw me off, way more than makes any sense whatever


i don't know
just a weird day
hope you're ok and all
sometimes i think you're energy
affects how i feel
but i didn't have anxiety, or anything
no tension or anger or jitters or whatever
just a clumbsy spacey discombobulated
out-of-pocket sort of day

i love you very much