CONNECT
in the
MAILBAG today
I didn't do
the stuff
I was
GONNA
DO
I did
SOME
of it
I have to figure out
URGENCY
without stress
I don't want
it
to be
URGENCY
I'm TRYING to REPLACE
URGENCY
I'm TRYING to
FIND
SOMETHING
that WORKS
I just want
to self-sooth, maybe
& only do what
HAS to be
DONE
& I KINDA
go back and forth
ABOUT
whether I'm not ALLOWING myself
to REST
OR
I'm just making
EXCUSES
why am I not being
PRODUCTIVE
& I get
DISTRACTED
AND
I SAW this THING
ABOUT
INTER
generational
TRAUMA
AND
I KINDA
HATE
that
CONCEPT
I ALSO
HATE
the IDEA
of BRINGING
PAST
LIFE
TRAUMA
come ON
it's
TOO
MUCH
too HEAVY
I feel like
this
DRIFTed MORE than usual
