I had
was thinking about
&
I realized
I have some questions
that are LIKE
impossible to ASK
in an unbiasing
AND
I am not going to ask them
YET
I BELIEVE you LOVE me
I do NOT believe
you are trying to use or abuse me in any way
I am unclear
on some stuff
&
I have sometimes
just thought
this or that
was the reason
BUT
NOW
I feel LIKE
I could OPEN that up
there MIGHT be THINGS
I'm NOT seeing
I MEAN
in Portland, maybe you were
NOT sure how I was
GONNA react
maybe you were
a little afraid
& your eyes were like guarded or something
BUT
I was coming at you with
I NEED RECOGNITION
NOT FOR something
BUT
AS someone
who MATTERS to you
BUT
I had some WAY
I FELT like
THAT was SUPPOSED to happen
BUT
since I came at you
a certain way
it
COULDN'T
YOU are the LOVE of my life
I don't want to
CHANGE you
OR
blow up your sh*t
BUT
I ALSO
don't want to play out
a dynamic
where
I'm somehow
just re-living
SOME painful dynamic
from childhood
(continuing)
