I did a bunch of CHORES today 

I FEEL 

MUCH 

SANE-er

I should have gone to bed 

LIKE an hour ago

early morning 

TOMORROW 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 💋 

goodnight 

❤️👾🫚🫶

goodnight sweetheart 💋

I LOVE you VERY much ❤️👾🫚🫶

Kurt Geiger

BASED on the MUSIC 

I guess 

I'm NOW 

the targeted demographic 

for

DILLARD'S 

I DO LIKE 

some CRAZY shoe

BRAND

hang on

I don't RECOGNIZE 

a BUNCH of 

BRANDS

at

SEPHORA 

I had a sample

of

youth to people 

blah blah exfoliating treatment 

I liked it 

BUT 

I'm on the fence

I thought about it 

& it doesn't even come down

to price

I JUST could not have 

waited in line

at SEPHORA 

memorial city mall 

was where

my mom

took me

on

Thursday night visits

it was a really good mall

& SOME number of years AGO 

they renovated it

& it was

SEEMED 

KINDA fancy

BUT 

NOW it has a definite VIBE 

it's a WEIRD vibe

& of course 

there's ALSO the fact

that I'm not USED to 

being out in PUBLIC anymore 

BUT 

it's NOT just that

I kept soaking in

the WEIRD vibe

BUT 

then I came to some CARTS 

& these

I worked at these

they're SMALL businesses 

AND

I was VERY attracted to it

AND

the little FLUFF in particular 

I wanted one of the hand painted hats

BUT that SEEMED impractical 

they had a BEAUTIFUL 

poncho-type thing

too hot

too bulky 

BUT 

I had just the other day SAID 

I could REALLY use an

APRON

when I saw that one

it just SEEMED right 

I'm not SURE 

WHAT to THINK 

I'm looking at that 

FLUFFY 

& I'm 

LIKE 

PLACEMENT 

I went to memorial City Mall

to walk

I think this is the

first time

I've really shopped

at a mall

since

the before times*

*although I think I've been to isolated stores in the galleria a couple times

this is what I bought

it's an apron

goodnight sweetheart 💋

I LOVE you VERY much 

❤️👾🫚🫶

DOCTOR CAPT TONY

or is that

CAPT TONY PhD

MISS DUKE

NEEDS

a chuck & Roxy number

I CANNOT WAIT 

STONEHENGE

I stayed

at the Paris in Vegas

it was nice

it was not what I wanted

from the Vegas

experience 

& there was a soupcon 

of epicot about it

I wanted

SOMETHING 

more like

NOIR meets fear and loathing

RAT pack

MAYBE 

VEGAS

struck me as

SOULLESS

BUT 

in a much more SANITIZED way

I did not think

I'd ever go back

BUT 

that sphere CALLS to me

the

VOMIT gold

ANCHOR 

"viral" appeal to the youth

HANKER!NG 

OMG!!!

THIS 

is the BEST 

I want

UNCLE TONY'S tictoc 

SO BAD right now

I LOVE you 

HEY NOW

don't say

OVER three hundred pounds

LIKE 

that's a LOT of weight

for a grown man

EATING in 

New Orleans 

BUT 

yeah, he did start the whole

nation wide

BLACKENED

I have got to say

I took his

POINT

about New Orleans FOOD 

BUT 

I think SBARRO'S is having 

FINANCIAL difficulties 

&

I have picked

sbarro's 

in a mall

many times 

there baked ziti

is what

I always get

it would never be mistaken 

for fine dining 

BUT 

you can't really be

MAD at it

ya know

well

I checked to see if there was a TK 

apparently 

this week

M,T,W

or something 

LATER 

the economist

is making me

feel like

I UNDERESTIMATED 

just how bad the debate was

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

have a beautiful day 

❤️

OK

I may

have decompressed

enough 

to sleep

perhaps

goodnight sweetheart 💋 

I LOVE you VERY much 

❤️👾🫚🫶

I feel like 

that didn't go well

trump lied

NON-STOP 

but

NO FACT checking 

biden

didn't give the

OPTICS

I was hoping for 

I wanted him to

be less reactive 

I wanted him

to show

the doubters

that he's UP TO THIS 

I don't feel like 

that's what happened 

BUT 

for the record

I think 

biden has done more

than any president 

than FDR 

why

is this so bad

I don't feel like 

this is going 

very well

at all

trump is lying 

a lot

BUT 

he seems sharp

biden sounds sick

& he's not at his sharpest

I'm worried 

MUST include 

SUSTAINABLE practice 

REPLACEMENT for

ALUMINUM FOIL*

*in an understated folksy update of depression era conservation but for like the scorched earth but low key, ya know

I MEAN 

obvi

she could do a great bit

WITHOUT 

BUT I mean 

THAT 

is what I WANT 

her to do

BE a Z*

*or possibly, my romanticized abstraction of a z

hasn't NIGEL taken sh*t 

about that FOIL 

LONG enough 

EXTRA POINTS 

if she can

STYLE

the sustainable practice 

as a LIFE HACK

is this WEIRD 

I DEMAND 

that the INTERN

do a whole PRODUCTION 

around the

BAGEL RUN -- Bethesda Bagels -- read

I already LIKE the INTERN

goodnight sweetheart 💋 

I LOVE you VERY much 

🫶👾🫚🍨

HOCKEY 

McDAVID

the goalie's ANXIETY 

at the PENALTY kick*

*wrong sport, but points for German film knowledge 

LONG before you were BORN 

I was TALKING 

PREVAILING

CURRENTS

in pools

OK

I'm fixin to listen to TK 

BUT 

FIRST kids

some concepts I wanted to remember 

I WROTE them DOWN 

we ACCEPT the love

we THINK we deserve 

you have to BELIEVE it 

to SEE it

the APPARENT FLAW is

an ARTIFACT 

of your CUSTOMER'S ignorance 

what you MEASURE is

WHAT you manage

oh yeah

my therapist 

says

I'm a FAST TRACKER*

*haven't I been going 

for like

a LONG f*CKing time

🤠

OK

I wasn't planning 

TK for tonight 

BUT 

I had happened to notice 

but I think I'm gonna leave it there

for now

goodnight sweetheart 

I LOVE you VERY MUCH 

💋🫶👾🫚

SANDS

has there ability to be

FRIENDLY 

with

as many people

as the SOCIALITE 

I'm still working on the MATH 

the Dutch people

are perhaps capita

the tallest people in Europe 

HAZING 

the intern

I did study

COMMUNICATONS

& real estate & business 

& NOW 

I'm here to listen to YOU 

EVERY DAY

well

you're gonna have to

go on BAGEL RUNS

Dan Bern shout out

in the mailbag

GOD I love sports

Connor mcdavid

BEST team sports player of all time?

Sands is gonna

BONE UP

with ROSETTA stone

doesn't know about 

ROBES

but the room will be NICE 

tent or 20 minutes

does it matter 

P!NG PONG!

CLIMATE protest

powder

paint

they share a birthday 

EBULLIENT 

Greg Garcia & I have talked about it

YOU are not ALLOWED to RETIRE 

Jack Nicklaus + WILBON 

just got done with therapy 

I hope you are having a beautiful day 

❤️💋🔥🫶👾🫚🍨

I have been kinda

lost in thought

I'm fixin to 

just go on to bed

&

TK can be tomorrow 

I just didn't manage my time 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

goodnight 💋

🫶👾🫚

good morning sweetheart 💋

I gotta go to bed

early tomorrow 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 💋 

goodnight 

🫶👾🫚

it took me a WHILE 

❤️❤️❤️

🤠

I'm sorry 

I know you don't like it 

when I don't talk 

BUT 

I'm LIKE 

SERIOUSLY 

PROCESSING 

&

I have no IDEA 

HOW 

to DESCRIBE what 

is happening in my HEAD 

the sh*t I'm doing 

is pretty normal 

BUT 

not very interesting 

I feel less CRAZY 

which is 

SOMEHOW counter-intuitive

goodnight sweetheart 💋 

I LOVE you VERY much 

🫶👾🫚

goodnight sweetheart 💋 

I LOVE you VERY much 

🫶👾🫚

Tim Bogert died of cancer in 2021

everyone else is still alive

77, 78, & 79

Chapin family shouts out

let's have a catch

ep292

ep67

sorry kid, GOTTA GO

chat up some birds

I don't plan this stuff out kids

CAPT KORNHEISER 

❤️

WA!T

I don't get to pick

my walk-up

🎵USIC

that's why 

I don't come on the show

much 

Mary Carrillo 

KNOWS

EVERYONE in Naples Florida 

NEW tennis 

CROP

COCO

I follow her on insta

I really LIKE her 

there's a lull in the match

let me JUST 

STICK a shrimp fork in his arm

WILLIE & hunter

❤️

BAT carousel 

MIC drop

MOO COW coffee

Donald Sutherland 

mobile army surgical hospital 

yeah, but I don't know what that is

STYLE section 

top of the fold

is there any better way

to make it with

WOMEN 

than to be handsome 

& play the cello 

it IS kinda sexy

when they do something 

with the bar code

BUSTER sent ice cream 🍨

well I took a bag

of stuff to buffalo exchange 

& they didn't want any of it

NOT ONE thing

I guess

my style is too old

because this is NICE stuff 

new condition 

following trends

BUT 

I had to wait an hour

TODAY 

was a non-verbal

SORT of DAY 

sorry

goodnight sweetheart 💋 

I LOVE you VERY much 

🫶👾🫚

I cherish you 

I know 

it's 

all

VERY complicated 

BUT 

I was NOT lying about 

writing you into

my history 

I see you

as that

twin

I wished for

I KNOW it sounds CRAZY 

I KNOW 

🤠

ROCKY RACCOON!!!

CAPT KORNHEISER 

MIGHT be my favorite of these things

I want to WATCH that

since when

do you not want to be

OVERLY dramatic 

LOUISE GLUCK shout out!

that was a good show

I gotta go to bed 

goodnight sweetheart 💋 

I LOVE you VERY much 

🫶👾🫚

I'm enjoying this 

Dallas

Boston 

discussion 

I'm glad I'm not getting 

BELLIGERENT 

it's making

me

HAPPY 

Nigel has never been so tranquil 

Cole

Judge

Yamamoto 

Mookie

SKENES (have I memorized that spelling?)

have I heard this guy before?

if so

he's hitting me differently 

is there an arbitrary number 

that you think

is an important number 

HARDER

more SPIN

it's sock-eye salmon

& it's REALLY good 

I was just so happy

to see all the

STUFF 

on

willy mays 

I should have thought 

I MEAN 

on Twitter I would have 

FIVE TOOL PLAYER

BEST PLAYER ever

BEST FIVE TOOL player

it's sad he's dead

I feel LIKE 

SO many GREATS

he is pretty impressive 

even in YouTube 

videos

then he stores them in the fridge all week

OK

I didn't hear the never meet you idols

part before 

I'm not sure 

if this is a good time for me 

I feel like I need to be

explaining something already

which maybe means I'm 

defensive and belligerent 

I think I'm expecting 

something 

idk what 

BUT 

I don't want to be THAT with you 

I'm proceeding cautiously

OK

I KINDA forgot about TK until tonight 

& I then KNEW 

I was late

BUT 

I didn't realize 

he did the show yesterday 

THINKING back

I don't think 

I MADE clear 

I would be devastated 

if you decided

I was no fun

I think 

I'm all tough, ya see

I'm giving you outs

I don't want to 

pull you in

to something you couldn't handle 

BUT 

does that even

MAKE SENSE 

I'm not sure

SO

I was up briefly 

at 10

to cancel anything I had going

& to feed the cat

I went back to sleep 

& I just got up at 3

because the notification for my

imperfect box

woke me

I dealt with that

& made a smoothie 

& now it's 4:30

which seems like too much time 

BUT there you have it

I just checked social media 

& I'm not SURE 

if I should congratulate you 

OR

be afraid for your life

Once I got to sleep 

between 4 & 5 this morning 

I pretty much

slept like the dead

I'm not going to apologize for trying to 

repair myself 

although I feel like 

that is what I would usually do here

I don't feel like 

it was any big secret that I was broken

& I don't feel like 

it was any secret that I've been 

trying to repair myself 

AND

it therefore seems 

inappropriate to apologize 

I DO however 

want to THANK you 

for everything you have done to

help & support me 

thus far

& remind you 

that I do not hold you

to be responsible for me 

we have a relationship 

BUT 

it can be

REALIZED 

in

any number of ways

OR

you could just decide

I'm no fun

& ditch me

I will have feelings about that

& there may be some 

LIKE consequences 

BUT 

I'm NOT a person who 

enjoys hurting even people I don't like

&

I LOVE you VERY much 

I think you'll be okay 

I don't think you understood the

killing myself thing

& I want to make it clearer

so you maybe won't stress about it

I wanted to kill myself 

from maybe eight or nine

LOW-KEY 

which is why my father told me the THING 

about if you kill yourself 

you have to live all eternity 

in THAT state

THAT worked for a while

AND

when I discovered that I WANTED you 

I was living in a state

where I prayed

NOT to wake up

I don't think I really believed

I could "get" you

BUT 

you were the ONLY thing*

I had compellingly wanted

*although of course you're not a thing 

SO

I told myself 

FINE 

go all in

in a sort of GATTICA way

don't save anything for the swim back

if it doesn't work out 

THEN you can kill yourself 

MIGHT have to 

BUT 

in the process 

ONE after ANOTHER CHOICES

QUITTING smoking

so I could have your baby

which was real to me

EVEN though 

PROBABLY ridiculous 

& lots of little steps

WHATEVER, ya KNOW 

I'm HERE 

& if you think that's good 

you can thank yourself 

you've ALREADY been a HERO 

I'm NOT going to off myself 

you do not need to worry 

the TAROT says

the MAGICIAN 

SO

I'm going to STOP talking 

I need to go to bed

goodnight sweetheart 

I LOVE you VERY much 

💋🫶👾🫚

I ALSO didn't realize 

he died 

I just thought 

how great

to be seeing

ALL this tribute

BUT 

there's been so much baseball 

with the record updates

I missed the CONTEXT 

there were some questions 

I had

was thinking about 

&

I realized 

I have some questions 

that are LIKE 

impossible to ASK

in an unbiasing 

AND 

I am not going to ask them

YET

I BELIEVE you LOVE me

I do NOT believe 

you are trying to use or abuse me in any way

I am unclear

on some stuff 

&

I have sometimes 

just thought 

this or that

was the reason 

BUT 

NOW 

I feel LIKE 

I could OPEN that up

there MIGHT be THINGS 

I'm NOT seeing 

I MEAN 

in Portland, maybe you were

NOT sure how I was

GONNA react

maybe you were

a little afraid 

& your eyes were like guarded or something 

BUT 

I was coming at you with 

I NEED RECOGNITION 

NOT FOR something 

BUT 

AS someone 

who MATTERS to you 

BUT 

I had some WAY

I FELT like 

THAT was SUPPOSED to happen 

BUT 

since I came at you

a certain way 

it 

COULDN'T 

YOU are the LOVE of my life 

I don't want to 

CHANGE you

OR

blow up your sh*t

BUT 

I ALSO 

don't want to play out

a dynamic 

where

I'm somehow 

just re-living

SOME painful dynamic 

from childhood 

(continuing)

my more

GENERAL advice to self 

is LIKE 

anything that CROSSES your MIND 

I MIGHT want to do THAT 

NOT like BIG stuff 

LIKE 

the MOST little stuff 

DO it

as SOON as possible 

I'm trying to build 

LIKE 

a FOUNDATION 

a BASE

that I FEEL like 

I should 

ALREADY have 

BUT 

SOMEHOW don't 

I don't know HOW I don't 

(continuing)

I SAID 

I had seen a video on 

SHADOW work

& had become SOMEWHAT caught up

with the IDEA

that I couldn't see 

wasn't conscious of 

aspects of myself 

ya KNOW 

subconscious sublimated BLAH BLAH BLAH 

I ASKED him 

if he had

ANY thoughts 💭💭💭 

about anything he might think

AND 

he hmmm'd a bit

& came out with more talents

which, maybe, BUT 

not really what I meant, ya know

(continuing)

I told him 

about the guy

at the bus stop 

&

he's LIKE 

yeah, he was like old school

letting you KNOW 

BUT 

as he was saying it 

I could see

HOW his reaction was 

KINDA dependent on my description 

BUT 

then I'm LIKE 

but how was THAT supposed to work then

I MEAN he's a landscaper 

surely he could give me a card or something 

& he's LIKE 

yeah, he f*CKed up

he did say

he had three kids

maybe I was supposed to infer a wife

maybe he was just being friendly 

RIGHT 

THAT was the point I STARTED with 

it doesn't make sense to me 

BUT 

YOU understand my point, right

I feel like 

my therapist didn't 

(continuing)

I realize

I probably have not

presented a very coherent 

PICTURE 

I was feeling some way

I couldn't describe 

I was trying to explain 

to my therapist 

I've understood since I was a kid 

there is a certain amount 

of what you get

that is based on the vibe

you put out

my Aunt Edith

she was LIKE 

the editor of the newspaper & the year book

at UH and she won awards & sh*t

BUT she couldn't 

deal with people ultimately 

AND

she would talk about it

& my gran gran and aunt joan too

& I could see

SHE was paranoid 

she thought people thought 

she was weird and fat and whatever 

she came at them with THAT 

& they gave it right back

self fulfilling prophesy 

THAT was a BIG lesson for me 

BUT 

I now think there's some way

in which I'm still doing 

SOMETHING 

similar

I NEED to be coming at THINGS 

in a way that

I couldn't quite articulate it to him

I don't think he gets a lot of what I'm trying to say 

in a way that makes what I want 

POSSIBLE 

it's NOT that I can't get along

it's NOT that I care generally what people think 

it's SOMETHING 

that I DON'T SEE I think 

& I'm freaked out

that I might not be able to see

MYSELF clearly 

(continuing)

❤️

I LOVE you VERY much 

I'll tell you more about therapy 

in a little while 

OK

I'm all LIKE 

I feel like I don't KNOW anything 

BUT 

in a different way than usual

USUALLY 

I feel like I know there's a lot of information 

which I know I don't know 

& I'm not trying 

to pretend that I know it

I'm happy if someone has 

something I don't know 

& can tell me about it

NOW 

I feel LIKE 

the systems 

I've been using 

for analysis 

MIGHT be FLAWED

SO 

I'm giving myself 

more general advice 

he SEEMS to think 

I am making

PROGRESS 

& his reaction SEEMED to indicate 

LIKE 

IMPRESSIVE progress

SO there's THAT 

good morning sweetheart 

I had a LOT of dreams 

&

I'm not sure they were all good

because I woke up to pee

&

Robert was in THAT dream

I FEEL 

some way I can't describe 

getting ready for therapy 

which has

NOT 

been cancelled this week 

I hope you are having a beautiful day 

I LOVE you VERY much 

💋🫶👾🫚

I'm pretty short on sleep 

I'm nodding off 

sitting here 

I gotta go to bed 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 💋 

goodnight🫶👾🫚

LUCK

is the RESIDUE 

of HARD work 

WE do TV

for ourselves 

NOT the audience 

FLUENT in the 

LANGUAGE of the SEA

the OPEN 

RORY McELROY (?)

play it as it lies

burns the edges

maybe 

it's gonna be 

the ALL GOLF show

well

my mind 

likes to make

weird medlies

SO

NOW 

over and over

Henrietta Esmeralda 

call the trouser PANTS

good morning sweetheart 

I should be asleep 

BUT 

I'm NOT 

& I meant to tell you 

I had blue highway

in my HEAD

this morning 

& just now

my FAVORITE HEN

Henrietta Esmeralda Corleone Vivace 

I just was watching 

VIDEOS 

I think I'm getting myself confused 

I need to go to bed

💋👾🫚

the thing about 

the renovated memorial park

is they are trying to get BACK to NATURAL 

SO

there's a bunch 

of open "prairie"

to absorb RAIN 

BUT 

MOSQUITOS ya know

plus it's HOT 

& humid

AND

it's KINDA 

dangerous, really 

I couldn't really look at anything 

EXCEPT the uneven ground

& some of that

I wouldn't have been able to do it BEFORE 

it's NOT what I guess I prefer

landscape-wise

MALL walking 

SOUNDS dumb

BUT 

AIR CONDITIONING, just sayin 

I gave the neighbors the COOKIES 

I don't feel like 

my experiments 

were very successful 

there's a Y down the street

I THINK has 🎾 

I'm a little bummed that that HIKING wasn't FUN

AND

when I got back in the car

my hand was slightly numb

SO 

I might have pinched a nerve, slightly 

it's more or less fine NOW 

MAYBE buffalo bayou park

MAYBE just neighborhoods 

I hope you had

a beautiful day sweetheart 💋 

goodnight sweetheart 

I LOVE you VERY much 

🔥🫶👾🫚❤️

OK

TAGGED SAFE

back at car

I think I prefer

URBAN walking, sadly

OK

I'm LOST

I'm being EATEN alive

NOT FUN

MOSQUITOs AF

I HOPE you are having a beautiful day sweetheart 

I LOVE you VERY much 💋

& I know you have a history with

the whole

FESTIVAL thing

SO

CONGRATULATIONS 

are perhaps in order

that's a BIG one

I THINK 

❤️

goodnight sweetheart 

I LOVE you VERY much 

❤️👾🫚💋

I have some trepidation 

about the park

BUT 

I keep telling myself 

that I want to

H!KE

some of these

north/south trails

THROUGH HIKING 

AND 

I KNOW 

I'm lying about THAT

because 

NO BATHROOMS

BUT 

I'm curious 

is this really something I will enjoy 

OR 

NOT 

I think I found a solution 

they kept saying

guar gum

or something else gum

& I'm like

eewww, really 

BUT 

THAT'S just if you care about VEGAN

GELATIN 

I used to take gelatin capsules 

back in the day

made my nails stronger

SO

that will be next

🔥🫶💋

they are CRUMBLY

which was not completely 

UNEXPECTED 

they are GLUTEN free 

& VEGAN 

OAT & buckwheat flours

COCONUT oil

CHIA

almond milk heated & mixed with the chia

which I KNEW would probably 

exacerbate the CRUMBLY*

*because it takes it past the "chia egg" slimy state into more of a really nice puffy texture 

I used stevia

& a little cardamom 

CARDAMOM is my FAVORITE 

of those SWEET spice

& THAT is saying something 

because cinnamon is 🔥

I use

three times as much cinnamon 

as the most cinnamon-use-ing-est

person you ever previously KNEW 

OK

I'm about to take the first batch

out of the oven

I doubt they will be 

neighbor quality 

BUT 

I'm HOPEFUL 

they are

ME quality 

found an

In Harmony with the Homeless CD

on eBay 

CHORES today 

Hiking TOMORROW 

I've got to

BUTCHER a f*CK-ton of cantaloupe 

boil a carton of EGGS 

try to make some sort of healthy 

oatmeal/ buckwheat cookie

WHICH 

if it's tasty enough to give

to the neighbors 

I can keep

at least ONE 

of the brown butter chocolate chip cookies 

I bought at whole foods

OTHERWISE 

they get all four WF CC cookies 

I'm also trying to get 

my apartment 

NOT looking like sh*t

getting a LATE start

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 💋 

have a beautiful day 🫶

I'm trying to talk myself 

into driving to

the hiking trails 

ROOT cause 

HOWARD -- little's weigh in

GILLIGAN'S island

TK style

& we hear db fading in and out

on the RADIO 

LATE 

at NIGHT 

HA

GOT THERE -- ON the f*CKing BOAT!

AND

WHEELS within WHEELS man

the SOCIALITE is in PLAY

it was a good episode 

Dear SKIPPER 

will you drive you BOAT

under the BAY BRIDGE 

FEISTY 

goodnight sweetheart 

I LOVE you VERY much 

💋❤️🫶👾🫚

HARD boiled EGGS?

THREE Phillies BARS in LONDON 

HEY

CHECK OUT our ROUNDERS game

Phillies, Yankees, Dodgers-- in THAT order

BIGGIO!-- hit by a pitch in his FIRST GAME!

he TEXTED him

REST in PEACE 

CAKEBREAD memories

with charcoal in his hand--

do the HUSTLE 

PINEHURST 

WILBON 

looks down his nose

no one arrested YET 

PEACOCK 

pebble & PINEHURST 

UGA

DUSTIN johnson -- lost

JUSTIN thomas -- lost

Texas Tech -- red raider GOLF

GREG GARCIA -- golfing WITH the SASH

I spent hours

cleaning

at my mom's house 

I am in a weird mood 

I wanna decompress before TK

I hope you're having a beautiful day sweetheart 

I'm not SURE 

if it was CLEAR 

BUT 

I THINK 

it's an improvement 

the focus on

MASS

over FAT

&

I'm NOT like

HULKing up or anything 

good morning sweetheart 

I LOVE you VERY much 

💋❤️🫶💌👾🫚

my phone ran out of juice

I was doing stuff 

TAROT 

THINKING 

I stayed up too late 

I need to go to sleep 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

💋❤️🫶💌

👾🫚

I've been FOCUSED on additive

rather than

SUBTRACTIVE

I just wasn't feeling 

the fast/min

SO

I changed tack

so the PROTEIN 

& the exercise 

BUT 

then I'm maybe 

building muscle and anyway 

if I'm FOCUSED on the THINGS I'm DOing

it works AGAINST to be

ALL LIKE 

did ya gain a pound

SO

I'm NOT weighing 

SO

NOW I am LOOKING at MYSELF 

AND 

I THINK chlorella might be

SLIGHTLY functional growth hormone 

OR something 

my skin on my arms

is tighter

AND I see more definition

in my arms and shoulders

I seem less jowl-y

MAYBE 

the protein has something to do with it 

I'm NOT saying 

OMG I look GREAT 

THAT is not what I'm saying 

I look IMPROVED favorably

in a way that SEEMS 

PERHAPS consistent

with

increased quality

of RNA

&

GROWTH factor

NEITHER of which SEEMED 

LIKE super plausible 

to me

BUT 

I really want 

HEAL what I'm reasonably sure 

is a somewhat fatty liver

& DETOX my FAT

SO

I didn't NEED to believe in it 

BUT 

I HIGHLY recommend 

COCONUT water 

I TRIED for YEARS 

to make myself 

DRINK it

NOW 

I drink it in protein shake

I've made cold brew

which is stronger than f*CK

I ordered a cold brew/infuser pitcher

just basic stuff

BUT 

it hadn't come yet

AND

I just ordered a twelve ounce bag 

of pre-ground coffee 

from the imperfect 

so it was LIKE 

JUST pour it in

BUT 

I used my nut milk bag

in my iced tea brewing pitcher

I didn't have enough 

COCONUT water 

BUT 

I didn't want a MESS 

BUT 

it's got a syrup-y quality

I really like 

AND

before I was switching between 

HEY I look really BETTER 

& dear god I am SO FAT

HOW fat was I BEFORE 

NOW 

it's switching between 

NOTABLE improvements

& 

JUST 

the SHEER 

MASS

of ME

Louise GLUCK call out*

*she pitched a perfect game you know

ep322

goodnight sweetheart 

I LOVE you VERY much 

💋👾🫚❤️🫶

they DO

& the headquarters are

in a DALLAS suburb

I'm gonna throw it out there

& you'll get it 

important traffic rebounds

OVER/under fifty

danny hurley 

he'd have to re-invent himself 

MEAT and POTATOES team

since it's JUST US 

do they still have

au bon pain?

my mind is wandering 

too much

with the

GOLF

I need to walk around a bit

I'm not going outside 

HOLLY Montgomery call out

DAN BERN call out

Little's go see Holly

BECAUSE Dan Bern 

N!CE

ROXY's MONKEY 

I'm not burdened by memory 

Hey

it's my paw paw's birthday 

& I was pretty sure 

your daughter's birthday 

was right around his

I'm not sure 

I ever knew

EXACTLY 

when it is

BUT 

HAPPY birthday to her

fifteen, right

this FEELS slightly gratuitous 

LIKE I'm trying to get 

CREDIT 

or something

BUT 

I'm just trying to be

MORE 

SOMETHING 

I'm not SURE what 

I guess I didn't say this

I'm not sure why

he told me

he used to be 360

& of course 

it may not be true

BUT 

he seemed "normal" weight

and "young"

I MEAN 

MAYBE he was as old as

LIKE 

late thirties

MAYBE 

that's already allowing for

EVERYONE LOOKS 

like ten years younger

goodnight sweetheart 

I LOVE you VERY much 

👾🫚❤️💋

ALSO 

there was a THING yesterday 

that I didn't get to 

the building 

where the BITE bar was

it's gonna be a restaurant 

& one of the guys

doing the landscaping 

TALKED to me

I was wearing those blue kawaii leggings 

he said 

I LIKE your pants

we had a conversation 

I'm not sure if it was FLIRTY or not 

I don't THINK so 

BUT 

it did include the line

I've seen you around here before

SO

idk-- inconclusive 

he used to weigh 360

he has three children

he uses wildflowers for his business 

his regular repertoire of eating out

features chipotle 

I feel like the fact

that I got

quite the information dump

in LIKE 

literally five minutes 

says SOMETHING but I'm not sure what 

HOW 

SHOULD this make me feel?

he seemed nice

he looked nice

I FEEL 

not EXTREMELY threatened 

BUT 

NOT completely UN-threatened

TODAY 

was intense

OK

so NO therapy 

BUT 

I have to take my cat to the vet tomorrow 

I really need to drive my car

&

I've let the battery go dead again 

SO

I was gonna call AAA

if the jump starter thing didn't work 

which 

it didn't 

BUT my neighbor was out

smoking a cigar

& he helped me

he's a 18 wheeler driver

but his rig's in the shop

he took me down to AutoZone to buy a battery

AND

put it in for me

I was BOTH 

DEEPly touched

& DEEPly mortified 

I don't ask people for help easily 

& truth be TOLD 

I didn't really ASK

I wanted help

I was happy for the help

I'm not entirely sure

that it wouldn't have been cheaper

& easier to just call AAA

the part where a piece of the sh*t that goes

around to hold the battery

fell between

the radiator and the front of the car

DOWN INSIDE 

&

we're slightly MOVING the radiator 

WAS STRESSFUL 

BUT 

it all worked out

& I feel

CARED ABOUT 

in a sort of visceral way

I have got to bake them cookies or something 

THAT'S NEW for me

goodnight sweetheart 

I LOVE you VERY much 

💋❤️👾🫚🫶

those are magnets

the door is metal

the light

is blue

I thought

this was a good idea

AND

SHE waivers between SCARY 

& FUNNY?

I figure 

if you're trying to DEFINE 

DISSOCIATIVE 

THAT'S 

NOT 

YOUR problem 

NOW 

I'm having COLD flashes 

I FEEL like 

THIS 

is

A

SPICY mailbag, somehow 

WAIT 

is OAKs a THING?!

Bob Finkelstein 

met Dan Bern 

DB TK salute

did NOT flush the rodent

I listened to that

BUT 

I didn't seem to connect 

I think my mind was

WANDERING 

I forgot 

about

BARRY 

there's a LIV golf

billboard 

on my way to work

my therapist texted me

they have mild food poisoning 

so no therapy tomorrow 

I'm torn between TWO THOUGHTS 

BOTH of which 

are, I think, slightly 

CRAZY 

one is that he just wants the day off for something 

no one has luck this bad*

*for the record, I verified the air conditioner story, yes I was slightly shocked myself, but I enjoy talking to the security guard**

**he's from Kenya I think, we talk mostly about the weather, he calls me ma'am which feels good for the first time ever because it just sounds good-natured not whatever it sounded before, and I just found out he has played tennis since he was five years old and still plays, he just seems like a very genuine person***

***why do I feel like some people are genuine and some people are not-- this is something that I need to think about because I just thought of an example where the person who feels not genuine to me, she's not like lying or anything it's just it feels constructed not false, I'm afraid part of that might be me

JESUS 

I didn't even get to the second f*CKing thought

THAT one 

I had been wondering if I should tell him

DESCRIBE 

there is some thought

that the whole

TIME walk

STOLEN hour

is a slightly dissociative experience 

& then there is some thought

that the universe delivers to me

WHAT I need

when I NEED it

there is some thought 

you got some skin in the game

TRYin to LOOK crazy

SHUT her DOWN 

PUT 

FOUR 

PEOPLE 

on the FLOOR 

WHO HAVE NEVER 

played basketball before 

it's NOT GONNA MATTER 

we're still gonna win

BARRY 

i walk by this to get to therapy 

& from bus stop 

& every time 

I THINK 

THIS 

could be my church 

WEIRD, huh

this is the building where the breast biting bar was

walking

OK

TK is up

SO

he's okay 

listening 🎧 tonight 

❤️👾🫚🫶

new TK not up yet

HOPE he's ok 

I'm at art supply 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

💋❤️

👾🫚

I'm really tired

even though 

I can't 

REALLY explain why 

also

headache again 

also

gotta get up early 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

💋💋💋 

👾🫚

🫶

I don't KNOW 

what you're thinking 

I'm thinking 

&

I'm a little WORRIED 

that you are

WORRIED 

&

I'm trying to 

SUPPRESS 

the worry 

I am going to SEE you

I'm NOT sure 

WHEN

I THINK 

what last trip taught me

is

I need to be 

READY 

SOMEHOW 

AND

I don't feel like I AM 

YET

BUT 

PLEASE know

it was GOOD 

to FEEL 

&

I think it helped me 

EVEN if it wasn't 

what it WAS

OR

what it MIGHT be

ALSO 

I'm fueling 

LIKE motivation/reward

with my 

CLOTHES HORSE

tendencies 

I don't REALLY think 

you are interested in my

RABBIT holes

BUT 

I remembered this dress

I had in college 

it had these GIANT pockets

BUT 

on the HIPS 

& somehow it WORKED 

I went looking

for just something with cool 

hip POCKETS 

on eBay 

& I found MM laFleur 

POWER CASUAL 

I was listening to an audible 

4 hour body

which is the kind of thing 

I normally 

wouldn't be telling you about 

BUT 

it got WEIRD 

FIRST 

he was talking about WHAT to eat

THEN

he starts talking about WHEN still normal 

HOW was where it came off the rails

he said SOMETHING like

MAKE your FIRST meal a BINGE meal

THAT didn't sound like something I

WANTED to listen to 

& my MIND wandered 

SLIGHTLY*

*not uncommon 

WHEN

he starts talking about 

DOing SQUATS 

INVOKING 

rapid gut transit*

*that's what I call it, he was much more graphic

WtSF

it was VISCERALLY 

LIKE 

that time I went LOOKING for 

YULE

&

found WHITE power Xmas

SO

I'm STRANGLY jangly

I don't remember my dreams

BUT 

I FELT you 

& I don't know REALLY if

YOU do that from a distance 

OR

if I just IMAGINE it all

but it's real to me

❤️

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

I'm very grateful for you too

I'm hoping to 

dream of you tonight 

💋💌

👾🫚

❤️❤️❤️

I feel not so VERY talk-y

BUT 

I do FEEL 

LIKE 

YOU 

are

all kinds of quantum entangled to me

& me to you

AND 

MAYBE that's CRAZY 

I'm HOLDing you

CLOSE 

rubbing my body*

*which I am not confident in completely 

somewhat gratuitously 

against you

BUT 

not quite enough to be objectionable-- 

trying to get a feeling for

how you might feel

pressed naked

to my soul

TONIGHT 

I imagine you 

HOLDing me gently 

we are standing 

fully clothed 

SWAYing

we're not 

talking

BUT 

it's 

NOT awkward or strange in any way

JUST 

CALM with a little bit of an eXcited edge

we are just getting 

RHYTHM 

DOWN

we haven't been 

either of us 

ABLE 

before now

to figure

OUT 

HOW 

we BEST can dance

TOGETHER 

I THINK 

I've been MORE functional TODAY 

I cleaned out PART of my pantry

REORGANIZED it

cleaned out the silverware drawer 

ran the cutlery holder thing-y 

through the washer 

things

I should be doing LIKE regular 

I'm doing a 

whaddya call it

incremental improvement model

I didn't say goodnight last night

I don't think 

I just sorta passed out

at some point 

I DON'T FEEL 

freaked out about anything 

I want to write you something 

BUT I'm not sure what YET 

I want to rub your face

against my 

face

YOU are so 

BEAUTIFUL 

PARKING was fine today 

SQUIRREL 

Opossum EAGLES

IKEA littles

FEVER of stingrays 

ep33

SKUBOSH(?)

the combination of PRIVATE BATHROOMS 

& kraft services

is what WILBON lives for

the MAVERICKS

SHAKEN

tye dye

they do a lot of things RIGHT in BOSTON 

they didn't lose three in a row

all season

coaching contracts

OHTANI -- PAUL SKENES

I don't believe anything

UNTIL you put a SHOVEL in the ground 

NASHVILLE & SALT LAKE city 

now I want coffee ice cream

HORSES horses horses

SIERRA LEON

HORSES horses horse

FOREVER young 

HORSES horses horses

GROUND loss

CAME in through the SNACK bar window 

GRASS in the mid-sixties

FINALLY made it -- TONY

Geoff Brody

OK

I'm fixin to listen to TK 

I was getting TK cued up

I'm listening later

BUT 

I wanted to make sure he was okay and everything 

&

he's starting with buster olney 

I like buster

SO

COOL 

my mom is here

gotta go 

💋❤️

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

I'm thinking about you 

I want to dream

ABOUT 

YOU 

👾🫚

💋💌

I came across THAT 

MUSE video

AND 

I found I had opinions 

& then I wondered

if that's what 

I am

&

what that means

or

doesn't mean

I thought about my BODY 

I THOUGHT about

the way I used to try to position myself 

SO that you could LOOK into my EYES

AND you did

THAT may have been yesterday 

I was butchering multiple 

CANTALOUPES

&

I FELT you

you come up BEHIND me 

wrap your arms

AROUND me

RUB yourself against me

in A WAY 

I may not be able to HANDLE 

what I WANT 

I was looking for stretches 

because 

if I am going to get to 

BASIC fitness

I'm NOT there YET 

why am I all

non-function-y

when I feel like I've been working up to this

STRETCHING 

seemed like BOTH an immediate 

& a long-term answer 

I was hoping to find 

SOMETHING 

not too long & maybe kinda fun

BUT 

what I got was some bits of THIS 

some parts of THAT 

NECK still not quite RIGHT 

TODAY 

was DIFFERENT 

or

different than yesterday 

I decided 

I cannot function unless I get

this exercise 

figured out

I'm all can't function-y

AND

I KNEW I was increasing exercise 

I didn't SEEM to me

to be having negative 

physical reaction to the exercise 

I thought that would help

LOOSEN me UP

SO

WHAT happened 

MAYBE I underestimated

the amount of TENSION 

interacting 

in THAT I have to have blah blah blah

I felt like

I used to be good at that

& I don't seem to have caused any row

AND

Helene gave me a nice compliment 

STRANGLY worded

JUST as I would HAVE 

had it been her

THAT got THROUGH 

did I tell you

I can't REMEMBER 

HEY

MAYBE we all JUST 

PAINTED BETTER 

but I can't HELP but THINK

YOUR arrangement 

is why that is the BEST one of those we've had

I MEAN 

I went BACK 

and LOOKED at it 

AGAIN 

there was a WAY 

I hadn't looked at it properly 

I collage-d them ESSENTIALLY 

I FEEL like 

she saw what I did and GOT it

AND

I REALLY like Helene

& I had some nice bonding with DONNA 

I just am NOT sure what all the tension is about

I was already having headaches 

I thought it was WEATHER related

BUT 

MAYBE my neck was ALREADY out

BLAH blah blah 

don't KNOW 

I'm trying to find 

STRETCHES 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 💋

WHAT is tattersall 

WAIT wait wait

STORYTELLER is a THING!!!

ep119(?)

DEVIL'S lettuce 👹🥬 😍 

you have to see LA CHEESERIE 

can I just get a picture

with the CHEESE counter

goodnight sweetheart 

I LOVE you VERY much 

👾🫚💋

SHOPIFY 

is all LIKE 

nah, just play the ad

MILES RUSSELL -- what's up with him

GOLF

FIBER is the key word kids

my wife is the REAL water polo player*

no no, I played at MIT

*26-0

GAMBLING 

comedy of errors 

with the NATS

THIRTEEN year old

PITCHING*

MOONLIGHT graham 

*I am on track for the ten year age shift guess

PARKING situation 

WHAT would I DO with that

UP NEXT

the water polo report 

maybe I NEED that CHILLY thing

OK

I need to say

I like the little catch up thing

they always do

at the beginning 

I LIKE when they do

an EXTRA 

mini mailbag

opening CALL OUT 

THING 

my imperfect produce order came

& I ordered

BABY TURNIPS

but the greens part

LOOKED pretty far gone

so I cut em up and put em

in the slow cooker with a bunch of SPICE

AND

now I'm gonna have to go buy more greens

because I CANNOT EAT them

I'm PRETTY sure 

WHITE PEPPER is the ISSUE*

because 

when I try to take a bite, I have to cough

*I saw too much went in, I wasn't careful with my flinging of spices, and I even threw in tarragon which I had, but rarely have, but I did restrain myself from tumeric and smoked paprika which are staples and I also did not use ghost pepper 

I'm BETTER 

still sore

BUT 

less locked

headache is not great, but I'm pretty sure my neck is slightly out

I'm listening to a podcast 

about focus group 

VOTERS 

&

it's pretty SCARY 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 💋

my whole back

is KINDA seized up

so I am ice-ing 

& I'm about to Epsom salt bath

STILL with the headache 

I'm SUPER into

CANTALOUPE for this summer, apparently 

&

I highly recommend 

BUTCHER box 

it's HIGH protein 

experiment time

talk more later ❤️🤓

I TRIED yesterday to get CLARIFICATION on 

the whole opposite of CRAZY

BUT 

it seemed to be

MORE my FIRST thought 

just kind of general reassurance 

I have had a headache 

my back

HURTS

I wasn't sure what to say about therapy 

I lay down 

I fell asleep 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

I need to go back to sleep

I'm sorry I'm not talking today 

HOPEFULLY 

tomorrow will be better for me 

YOU are AMAZING 

LOVE 

👾🫚💋

goodnight sweetheart 

I LOVE you VERY much 

👾🫚

RE-TEATHER themselves

to EDUCATION

a brilliant person 

who is 

a brilliant writer

MICHAEL is more discerning 

SUNRISE / SUNSET update

ENZO the BAKER

ep?

TKweed

better than MILFweed?

I wouldn't trust Congress

to make any law

affecting 

MY

LIFE

SPORTS media SUX

EDMONTON 

SOUNDS

enough like EVANSTON for WILBON 

ABE was a HUSTLER 

NCAA-- something about a big ball of yarn

I TOLD you, didn't I

that when I started at UH

they were running ads 

in the daily cougar 

for

"DATES"

for football players 

the NATS

do SOMETHING respectable

DON'T beat up the popular LITTLE GIRL

MICHAEL makes the GOAT PUTT 

SEVENTEEN 

two years AWAY 

DONCIC wants to SLOW it DOWN 

BASKETBALL is DOWN

for WHATEVER 

WALK it OFF CRACKER

I STILL have a headache 

BUT 

it was a GOOD day 

I'm REALLY enjoying 

the WALK

I only had two dollars 

SO

I had to AVOID the homeless

WELL they aren't ALL

HOMELESS 

which meant

CROSSING 

NOT at the lights

I was pretty stoked about being a block over

because I would FINALLY see BELL PARK

I'm thinking about what OTHER WALKS 

I could do 

SOMATIC 

I want to say UPDATING

BUT 

I MEAN sort of WALKING thru TIME

GHOSTLY -- ya KNOW what 

NO, not ghostly 

TRANSPARENT 

half IMAGINED

& some

WHAT was THERE--

I'm gonna take some more aspirin 

make a tea

& listen to TK

I REALLY thought 

the walk would help the headache 

met a cool girl

at art supply today 

traveling videographer and model

I THINK 

I haven't really looked at her pages yet

she wanted to see my art

friend of one of the photographers 

so when she said she was 

all those things 

I'm like do you have an Instagram

SO 

THAT is what THAT was about 

she was SUPER nice

& genuine

I've had a headache all day 

I've had a lot of thoughts 

I want to share 

BUT 

I'm super tired 

SO

let me just say 

I'm VERY grateful for YOU 

&

I want to KNOW 

if it's okay 

to HAVE 

impure thoughts

about you 

because I do

goodnight sweetheart 💋 

I LOVE you VERY much 

👾🫚💌

I defiantly don't like the name

CHIPPY

LEXI 

I'm OLDER than SANDS

why is the idea of competing against 

FRIENDS such a THING 

isn't it FUN to play

against friends

if you're BOTH competitive 

asking for a FRIEND

LOVE the Canadian national anthem 

OH CANADA 

PITCHING is HOT

the GAME is at a high level

what's he doing RIGHT 

'cause he listens to the SHOW 

& I LIKE it 

the PITTSBURGH kid

INDIANS

BASEBALL is NOT basketball 

LYNX

or LINKS

re-enacting the chipper shot from FARGO

with a mouse

in the kitchen

daughter-in-law

Ezra POUND

goodnight sweetheart 

I LOVE you VERY much 

💋👾🫚💌

❤️🌈🏵️🌺🍥🍭

THIS was why I had to go to the studio today 

people didn't turn in their stuff when they were supposed to 

the signage isn't right yet

I hadn't remembered 

to be talking about 

POWER 

BUT 

I couldn't CLEARLY remember 

ONLY that I had said 

SOMETHING wrong 

tried to CORRECT it 

it was weird 

& like I said before 

I gotta go to bed 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 💋 

goodnight 

oh and it's been quite the

sexy Sadie

Winnie the Pooh 

medley

in my HEAD

maybe

this makes sense 

BUT not to me

😜👾🫚❤️