flowering chaos

Saturday, June 5, 2021

i've been thinking all sorts of things

and

somehow that led me to cholla

she was a big influence on me

she and my mom were friends for years

finally i think cholla decided my mom was too negative for her

and my mom had already gotten pissed at her

because

my mom had painted some painting that she thought was really good

and

cholla say it and asked her if she wanted some books she had

on how to paint water

it was a waterlily painting

and

my mom took it as a huge insult

which

i can't say because i wasn't there

but

maybe when you're friends for 25 or 30 years

maybe you could give them the benefit of the doubt

anyway

cholla introduced my mom to barbara

and i always sort of thought

she was giving them to each other

to free herself from them

she died

about a year after my dad

and

i mean i hadn't kept up with her

nobody called me to tell me or anything

i don't think they called my mom

but she had a big influence on me growing up

and

i really don't think i'd be the person i am

if it hadn't been for her

anyway

i found these things

Saturday, June 5, 2021