i'm feeling kinda odd

like
sometimes blah
very flat affect
and
sometimes
like
maybe I'm in an alternate dimension
or reality
like
Monday
it seemed almost like I'd never been here before
at work, I mean
not really
I recognized it
but
it was like it was not a place
I go
ya know


last night
I had this whole fantasy
I'm an old woman
like I think I was 71
and I have this farm/ranch
type thing
and i have goats and chickens
and bees
and I've found a way
yo get the bees to make honey
with marijuana
and
I've got
like an attractive ranch hand
who
strangely
finds me attractive
and
rubs my back
and sleeps with me sometimes
even though he's
like
young
and
I was trying to figure it out
but
it seemed a little
ungrateful
so
I just went with it