maybe it seems like i pulled away just when it seemed like i was getting closer

and maybe that's a little true
maybe I'm a little like a guy that way
but, also
I am extremely paranoid about her
I always think she's reading what I write
and trying to see what I think you said
only
then I thought maybe
I had made it sound like you said
something I didn't actually think you said
and I kind of got into a paranoia loop
I love you

and I am maybe making myself sick again

I can't get untired
and now I seem to have mild food poisoning
I'm a wreck

on the tarot
I keep getting these crazy answers

and my dreams are nuts too
I just want to sleep and sleep
which maybe isn't good

but
if I sound confused
its not about whether i love you
it's got to do with stuff