i wasn't sure

what to say
I felt
strangely
like I didn't want to say anything
but
in kind of a good way, ya know
thinking about things
wondering
what you're thinking

i wondered
what you thought when i called you puppy
what that's wired to
i like that
I've called you nicknames
how do they feel to you
should they be random and relevant
or is it more special
to have pet names

and
i can't believe I've never wondered this before
what do you call me in your head
do you think of me as words or pictures
or both
so curious
can't believe i never wondered that
that's not all that's on my mind
but
that's what I'm saying
right now
where other people can read it

i love you