i'm not really sure what i want the garden to be like

i mean
i kind of want it to be like the garden
you go to
when you meditate
a place of lushness, sensual, sensate

i just got all caught up in the idea
that it was a world where we interact with the world
not just with each other

but
i didn't want to interact with the world
i wanted to feel you

and
i wasn't sure what to write

so
i'm still not sure what to write