i love you very much

sleep tight baby
I'm going to bed now
it's been a weird day
head hurts
I've made my face hurt
trying to deep clean
and picking
I wish I wouldn't
it must be psychological
I guess
I couldn't stop myself
I'm gonna be sorry tomorrow
I'm gonna have a big scabby place
between my nose and upper lip
I removed little tiny beads of
maybe sebum
maybe wax from years of carmex addiction
when I was a kid/teen/young adult
before I discovered burts bees
or, hell, I don't know
maybe the burts bees left residual wax

I have this obsession
I want clear pores

it doesn't make a lot of sense