i haven't been saying much

i've started several things
this one's my favorite, i think

i've had
a bunch of thoughts

wait, right now, high
thoughts
can't keep up

but we've had this whole thing, in my head

this intimacy thing
and, my god
you

there is loud crazy music, wait, there was something about that
i didn't tell you yet, and it's gone

the emotion machine, and hell, that other machine, the religion one
do androids dream of electric sheep
there, got that down
but i missed that other


not to mention the whirl of thoughts

i'm not sure
what to write, what you'd like to hear
i felt you all day yesterday
but it was different
i'm not sure how to describe it
there was something turn of the head about it

i'm not sure what that means, i just feel that's what to say

and i needed to go to bed early
because i'm time shifting
for promo change
i needed to go to bed at 8pm and get up at 2am
but i didn't
i stayed up til 3:30am and slept til 6am

so
tonight i need to go to bed at like 5pm
and get up at 1:30am
it's gonna be an interesting week
i usually really dread these
but i'm kinda looking forward to it