Of course
I say
she can't help it
but
I can help it
so
does that mean that I think I'm better
or
that I hold myself to a higher standard
than I hold anyone else to
and
the answer is yes
to both of those things
whether that's good or bad
I'm not sure


but
I do wish
the woman I fantasized was my mother
I wish she'd shown up
she didn't
so
I guess I tried to become her


I'm pretty sure she had more money, though
: )