i had a rough day, and i'm not taking the gotu kola tonight

one of the effects
that the gotu kola can have
is to "balance" mood
but
I did not feel balanced
so
if it gives me dreams, whatever
but
if it makes me depressed
then I don't think, on balance it's a good idea
I cried plenty
I don't need more
also
I might be premenstrual
I've lost track
seems right though


so
tonight
I'm hoping for happier dreams


because
I don't really think my life is shitty at all
I've just got stuff
that's sub optimal
happening
a lot of it