I'm not sure what
I'm definitely having emotions
that I don't know where they're coming from
SO
I'm trying to find my brain
I'm trying to do it quickly
this tension
throws me off
I want to be
NOT
some weird way I've been before
I want to be
OPEN
to whatever goodness is possible
NOT
limited by my past pattern
YOU
are the only thing that has ever made me want to
LIVE
THAT sounds slightly psychotic
we've talked about it before
but I guess what I want to underscore here is
YOU gave me HOPE
for LIFE
I want to know you as well as I can
I don't want to hurt you or trap you in any way
I feel like there's something
I'm not doing or saying
BUT
I don't know if that's because I'm picking it up
OR
if I'm having some fall back paranoia
