Just recently

I had this little thought experiment

If I won the lottery

Like a really big lottery

Where I had enough money that I didn't have to worry about working or anything ever again

Where would I go

What would I do

And as far as places to live

I've lived here this is the only place I've ever lived

And really

Even though this is a very big city

I've never lived more than seven or eight miles from any place else I've ever lived in this city

And I've wanted to leave here

Since I was a teenager

I wanted to get some land off grid on the middle of nowhere and raise goats and bees and plant my own food and whatnot

But I never did that

If I won a bunch of money

Would I do that

I'm not sure

I've been talking about for years going to Marfa and living in a trailer

And I like Marfa

And I'd still like to do that

But I'm not sure I'd want to live there permanently

I've come to the realization that I think

I'd rather be in a blue state

With legalized weed

And I believe that was going to happen soon here

But I'm less and less sure

So then I think overwhelming beauty

That was my number one thing I said I wanted

And then blue state

And then bring the weed

And I would say low cost of living

Although if I want a big battery I don't need low cost of living

Now the place I always said I would love to live and every time I looked into it it was just too expensive

Seattle

Every place else in the world I really don't want to walk I think oh you know that's three blocks That's pretty far

In Seattle I say it's only 17 blocks and it's mostly down hill

The air is just so clean and beautiful

I know I've had little fantasies about having a shop or stall or whatever in the Pike's place market

And maybe I would love that but I don't know

What I went to New York I couldn't handle it I had a hard time leaving the apartment because it was too much psychic energy

Just too many people or something

The idea of going back to New York to see my brother is scary to me

Not just because of the whole deal with seeing my brother

But because New York is actively frightening

Chicago I really liked

But let's be realistic I don't really know Chicago

I never spent more than a couple of days being able to roam around

I've never been there in the cold

I love Chicago

I feel like if I was going to live in a big city

Maybe Chicago

And when I thought about winning the lottery

The first place my mind went to

What's that house in Umbria

I love the stone walls

I love the yard

I love the way that house is set up

But I've never been to Italy

Have no conception at all of what it would be like to live there much less in a suburb of a landlocked province

I don't know

I think about living on an English canal

In a boat

And that seems really cool

Would I get claustrophobic

I have no idea

I think about Australia and Tasmania in Australia and I think I would like those places

I think they're beautiful

And the people seem fun

There are other places

I just don't know

So I mean if someone was asking me

If you won the lottery where would you go what would you do

Maybe I'd travel around a little bit

I've always wanted to see him in ways house

My mother desperately wants to go to Sanibel Island for some reason

I really don't want to fly

So I'm not sure how I was going to get to my Italian stone cottage

In my mind I'm going to take a long ocean journey

Although come to think about it it doesn't really sound safer just more agreeable

I like the landscape in the American West

There's a fair amount of that I haven't seen yet

If I felt like I could drive an RV

Which I don't I feel like I'd be afraid

Maybe I would buy an RV and just travel around the west and see all the beautiful skies

I don't guess I can really answer the question

If someone is asking

People do ask questions like this all the time

If you could live anywhere where would you go

I guess my answer to that is I don't know

There are a lot of places that I want to go

But I guess I don't know enough about any of them to know if that's the place I would want to be forever

And maybe nobody is asking that

Maybe when it's supposed to answer that question kind of a knee jerk what's the first thing that comes into your head response

But I tend not to be very good at those

Colorado is pretty

But for some reason I've never had the feeling I wanted to live there

Although I don't know why not

Probably because I associated with snow

And snow is kind of a unknown quantity for me

I've never lived a new place where it snowed

And I feel like it would have problems that I would be unprepared for

Arizona is pretty

But I think the people there are crazy

And I guess they voted blue in this last election

But I don't think about it as being a place that is liberal and free thinking I think of it as being a place where crazy people live

Pretty landscapes though

Marfa has seemed appealing to me

Because it is a very liberal artsy place

But it's still got a western feel

And you've got that big sky

Milky Way at night

But I think it's changed a lot since I've been there

And I think it's gotten really expensive

And I'm learning things about Texas

I just don't know

I didn't really like Santa Fe

It seemed kind of fake somehow

Like they had a real place

And then they decided not to let it evolve but to try to reconstruct it or something

I liked it but it just had a weird energy about it I don't know I'd want to live there

I liked Albuquerque

But I didn't really see that much of it

At the old market place

It had a certain artificiality to it as well but it didn't take itself as seriously

My favorite coffee shop in the country is on the outskirts of Las Cruces

But I haven't really been in Las Cruces

I mean now that I've realized I could spend a year really not leaving the house

Becomes more a question of

Where is that perfect cottage

And maybe

Maybe it's worth telling you

That when I found that cottage in Umbria

The search I was doing and YouTube

Was Adobe house