i feel better

so
i don't know what's going on
with my brain chemicals
and
i don't know if it's stress
or what
but my hormonal cycle
is whack as well

and
i'm in the mood
which
i haven't been much, lately

and
it's kinda a shame, really
that i'm on an all you diet
because
damn
not only would that hit the spot
just right now
but
i don't think
that it's healthy
to go without, forever

i still don't know what to believe
and
mostly
that suppresses desire
ao
mostly
any desire has been
a never jam today type longing

but
now i wanna buck
and scream

and
i'm continuing the fantasy in my head
and
if i have to cry and cry later that i did that
i'm telling you now
and this is a promise
god will smite you

i'm not kidding

moose
and
all that

now
back to heat
i need you
and not gently
words like driving
and
explosive
and
you know where i'm going with that
but
more graphically anatomical
as well as fluid
and
maybe in the kitchen
or
i'm getting
between hanging sheets
on a laundry line
that smell of fresh linen
and damp grass

come on
don't hold out on me baby
i need you
now