well, maybe this isn't right either

i don't like the sundried tomato
it takes over

i could
[if i loose the sdt]
crumble this in mashed potatoes
and blah blah
for a really good shepherd's pie

i could maybe
crumble it
re-patty it
and fry it in a pan
to get veggie burgers

it just doesn't work for me
as a meatloaf
the texture is not right

i really like the crispy bits
but the center
still screams

not meat


i had a radical thought
about the greasiness

it involves tofu
which i try to avoid
for estrogenic reasons
but
drastic measures may be called for

if you freeze firm tofu
then
when it thaws
you can squeeze all the water out of it
like a sponge
and
it becomes
a sponge

if
i can mix up
some sort of oily mixture
it could absorb
into
the tofu

and
maybe
i'm missing the boat with miso
maybe i need worchestire sauce instead
at least in the grease

maybe
i'm using too much bread
or not enough egg
but it doesn't seem like it
you cannot possible have to use lentils
or fake meat substitute

but really
i think mine is just as loaf like as any
it's just not as meatlike
and
in the quest for meat-ness
i'm losing the veggie loaf-ness

bah

i will not be beaten
it's food
not mount everest

and
in case you can't tell
this is the only thing
i'm actually
enjoying
to do
anymore