ok
updating
I do not have to become an alcoholic
I haven't had any more
and the things that were better
have improved


I was taking a bunch of supplements
but
idk if you know
I stopped


the cat was cutting me
and my blood was thinned
so
I wasn't stopping bleeding very well
nor healing well
however
every time I've stopped before
it has been a problem
and I went back to being in pain


this time
I didn't go all the way to pain
but I was hurting
but in a pretty manageable way
and anyway
it's been a few months


today
I feel better than I did
that day I told you I felt good
I only slept about fourish hours
and I feel tired
not full of energy
but
like
good


I wish I knew why
so I could
ya know, keep doin the whatever
that's causing it