i've been getting 9 of wands
quite a bit, lately
and
that is a card that seems to vary quite a bit
from deck to deck
it has
kind of a girding of the loins
before battle
vibe
but
in some decks
there is a
those who are about to die salute you vibe
and in some
it is more about the courage before
what might very well be
ya know
henry the fifth-ish
so then
i have this deck
i think i mentioned
or maybe i just meant to
is hard to read
but
for some reason i was called to read with it anyway
and i asked:
what will be different
the next time i see him
because
there has been a certain element of
painful consistency
and
that's not completely fair, maybe
but
this is in my head, ya know
so, anyway
i got this card
which i wasn't sure quite how to interpret at first
but
i have decided now
how i am going to interpret it, anyway
but
then i realized that it is the 9 of wands, too
and that just
made me
wonder
how to interpret the larger pattern
anyway
no matter what it all ultimately means
i love you
