I woke up with a migraine

I cancelled therapy

I'm cooking

I'm feeling pretty anti-social

I LOVE you VERY much

I'm gonna try

to get out of my funk

so maybe I can be fun later

tonite

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart

I gotta go to sleep

👾🫚

possibly

SOME of that

was TWISTERLY*

*I don't know what it means I just went with it

the whole just got back

was like

this sensation that

LIKE

I just slipped back into this meat suit

like I was GONE and

NOW

BUT

then it's all like

does that mean I'm LIKE all

MULTIPLE

& NO**

**pretty sure 

you're pretty awesome

I feel LIKE I just

I'm high

I went on some BIG thought JOURNEY

& when I came BACK

I SAID

OH

DID I JUST come back

GOT not gone

I'm warming up to GRANDPA

he says such nice things

Phil's mom

Reginald is in the top spot

YALE

CHALK

CLEMSON

TOTAL chalk

in the EAST starting

AFTER ten

OVER armor of hydration

why could he not wear it with a cardigan

post sex nachos?

Peter Angelos

he was the best of men

he was the worst of men

MAYBE

OHTANI

gambling scandal, which one?

WILBON doesn't eat fruits or vegetables

there is definitely more

COMMERCE

NO CINDERELLA

no cuddly underdog

as someone still writing columns

it's been a few years now

oh, I remember him from his podcast plug

Charles f Barry kids

Dan Bern shout out

WIMBANYAMA

!!!

the flush the mouse

has become

SURREAL

SPIKE SPEAK

ep304 - top 200

first time long time 

SCOTT HANSEN red zone

FAMOUS karate man

do TK and his son have a really good relationship

I MEAN they must, huh

they tease each other a lot

he's gone a strange CONGLOMERATION

of arrogant

but self aware

but also kinda clueless

BUT schtick-y about it

OK

I've got close to you

& rainbow connection

playing in my head

I'mma listen to TK now

good morning sweetheart

fixin to head off to work

I LOVE you VERY much

👾🫚

goodnight sweetheart

I LOVE you VERY much

👾🫚

my head has been

eerily (sp?) quiet

BUT

the TAROT is

all knight of wands

knight of cups

over & over

so I'm like well

OK good

BUT then

I get the tower twice in a row

which isn't necessarily BAD

but it's not one 

that ever gets enthusiastic

from me

BUT then

ACE of COINS

SO

I am not sleepy

but I need to go to bed

gotta get up

REALLY early

I THINK

you're not quitting me

I THINK

things have sorta stabilized

I THINK

I need something

I'm not sure what

I ALSO

THINK that I am having a problem

which may not have occurred to you

a big part of WHY

I wanted to go on the trip

that I now am not going on until

who knows when

was to try

and get a handle on

WHAT I'm doing

& that is because I need

to be doing something

&

if I am now doing

a bunch of travelling

I need more money to do THAT

SO LIKE

I wasn't supposed to do that

BUT

NOW

I needed to have done that

& I FEEL like

I've lost some quality of myself

in this whole process

BUT

I'm not looking to run away

I'm just looking at

HOW

LIKE not together

my life is

which I didn't notice so much

BEFORE 

AND

then the reel

SEEMED to be

conveying something

about public school being good

MAYBE

because they had positive

interaction

with other children

BUT

it got away from me and I couldn't get the MESSAGE

so maybe that is the message

ALTHOUGH

I'm not certain what that means either

BUT it doesn't seem particularly scary

I feel like THREE

has like always been a thing

I looked up triplets

in dream interpretation

& it includes

the three references you'd expect

CREATIVITY

ties to TAROT empress

triple goddess aspects

BUT

ALSO

avoiding BAD luck

opportunities

TAKING on too much responsibility

OK

NOW I've got she's gone by hall & Oates

BUT

I'm not gone

I don't think you're gone

SO

I'mma say

you don't think my dream

meant good things

I think I understand part of what's bothering me

I FEEL like

YOU wanted something

SPECIFIC from me

& SOME of what I did WAS good

BUT some of what I did

was NOT good

& I'm afraid

AND I'm so focused on you

I don't seem to be able

to just talk to you NORMAL

BECAUSE now

I THINK there are whole swaths of my personality

that you find distasteful

I'm kinda SPINNING 

I had a lot of dreams

BUT

the only thing I remember

was SOMETHING about

TRIPLETS

a man

standing outside a door

saying something about triplets

THEN I actually get up

start scrolling through social media

& there's something

I don't really understand

something about failed home schooling

the first page of the message

was there a long time

BUT

the second part of the reel

was too fast

I kept trying

BUT

I just couldn't get the point of it

which SEEMS very LIKE

SOMETHING from a dream

BUT

it wasn't a dream

& then

I realized there were three children

the same size

MIGHT be

TRIPLETS

COINCIDENCE

well, not in my brain

SO now what does that mean

I do want to say

I got theories about

what's been going on

BUT

I don't see where triplets fit in

MUST be symbolism

I just feel

SO like I am missing

an important piece of the puzzle

I hope you are having a beautiful day sweetheart

I LOVE you VERY much 

I'm going to think about

holding you

YOU holding me

& try

to have dreams

I can tell you about

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart

👾🫚

now I think I'm feeling you

I'm going through my clothes

I've got a bunch of stuff

too big now

& some stuff that didn't

turn out to be

something I looked good in

or felt like me in

some of it fits

BUT

I won't wear it

& I really don't want to start

with trying to sell stuff online

so I'm looking into buffalo exchange

& whatnot

this redefining my look

has been

surprising to me

I feel like I have gone

kinda crazy for the performance fabrics

& the kinda sporty look

I'm just blah blah blah

none of this

is anything but my life

& maybe a little

just trying to push through the weirdness

OK

I think cleaning is a

mature thing to do

BUT

I'm not SURE about my motivation

I think I feel like

MAYBE I'm okay now

BUT

I don't REALLY understand

anything about

WHAT I did

RIGHT or

WRONG

I still feel like

there's STUFF I am

SUPPOSED to know

that I don't know

&

I'm not SURE if it's the same

STUFF

or new stuff

OR

if I'm just paranoid

does this make sense