i really really really wish

that we were alone together
right now
might be
that I'm just riled from all the
stuff in taking
but, damn
of course
we might be weird and afraid
if we were actually actually together
but
all I can think about
is how much I want you to hold me
I want to nibble your ears
I want to kiss you until my lips melt
and if i did any of that
I would want you in me
desperately
but
it's all that other stuff
I'm trying to focus on
but
I'm having trouble working
maybe
maybe I need to cut back on something
before I lose my fucking mind
completely