t wirl ing

so many thoughts
what
have i completely invented
there's always invention
there is an almost limitless layering of meaning

i wish i was better at expressing that

the multiverse

i watched this documentary the pyramid code
and it was interesting, very interesting
but
it also takes me cleopatra and king tut

and now
i'm remembering
when everyone had the same name as me
i didn't want to be the nickname for my name
i wanted to be
rose in pre school
but by second grade cleopatra

only difference
in pre school i had been more assertive
by second grade
i knew that that would cause all kind of complications

but
if i used my mother's model:

i always wished my name was the thing i'm naming my daughter

it'd be rose cleopatra vicky lilith albertine van unicorn

no joke
i would never name my daughter that

[oh, and vicky and l.a.v.u.
were more like affected alter egos
so they probably should not count in this]

so
we're back to rose and cleopatra



womanly
these names are womanly

shakti

so i've been giving some thought to that
tricky about the story
gotta be a story
what you want is capture a feeling
have masses of people have the feeling as one
that's the power of religion
as opposed to
personal spiritual practice, or whatever

and the reason it always goes bad, people
people want to harness that power
but
what religion is really about
is altering consciousness


in progress....