imelda makes a come back

it has been bugging me
when i said i could have lost more weight
i don't like the impression that that leaves
i don't really think i should have
i mean
i'd like to snap my fingers
and have my best body option like now man now
but i think it's better
healthwise
the way i've been doing it

that being said
the reason
perhaps
that people are noticing i've lost weight
is that i had finally gotten some smaller pants
one of my genius shopping traits
i buy things that will stretch or whatever
and so
i've been still wearing
what now look like clown pants
and the new pants
are black linen like the ones i had
so i bought them
figuring they'd fit in 10 pounds
but they didn't
but they do now
now
don't get me wrong
i am still fat, okay
but
i'm liking it anyway
and pulling up the pants is getting irritating
so
today i bought more clothes

but i did not plan to buy shoes
but today i bought 3 pair
which is more than i have bought in
wow
like
3 years
combined
maybe four

and okay one pair has been on the agenda for awhile
a step and tone kind of walking shoe
but they're kinda pricey
and i'm spending all my dough on freaky food
but i found some for $20 at ross
they are like LA Fitness or somethin
so they probably won't last forever
but sketchers don't have a great track record with me either
and the ones i want are $200
whatever
blah blah blah

but the others
a pick stitch platform wedge clog
and an honest-to-god-heel
not like a spiked heel
but
back when i was younger
i had some beautiful shoes
i liked em so much
i had em in 2 colors
they were made by etienne aigner
who is not like jimmy choo
he doesn't have groupies
but he made clean understated shoes
with goddamn genius instep gussets

but for high-instep-girl they were awesome
but i got rid of them years ago
convinced
i'd never wear heels again

but today
shining at me from the clearance section
of tj maxx
soft leather shiny black etienne aigner 3 inch heels
and they fit kinda like a glass slipper

*sigh*