do I even want to know why the men's (public) bathroom looks like this (at my job)

_41.4. 41"

THIS

idea

Art Retreat Center

open to the world and the world will open to you

Maybe someone did want to buy something

Or

Maybe they want to take lessons

I'm not clear

Lucy said her student really liked the "LiMiNaL" piece

AND then

emphasized that she liked it

that she wants to create painterly collage

that she's in Lucy's Oil painting class but doesn't paint with oils

I'm not entirely certain

I EMPHASIZED

I've taught a lot

just not art

I would love to teach art

Lucy said she will think about teaching options for me

SO

idk

BUT INTERESTING 

so

I was thinking the other day

what about this art stuff

I LOVE making it

I don't so much the interactions with people

about it

Gallery Scene

dealing with people who can afford that

Selling myself generally

NOT enjoying

and I actually thought

you know

children's books might be just your speed

up your metier

you like to do the writing all condensed and meta

Eric Carle's dead

what the hell

And you know what

the damnedest thing

at the open studio

this woman was being really irritating

and I get it

you gotta break it down

understand what you're looking at

but, as the dicestee...

oh so it's really just collage

except

that everything I'm collaging on

is also paper I painted

OH... didn't Eric Carle do something like that 

I didn't need to worry

No one wanted to buy anything

❤️

finished grid -- LiMiNaL SpAcEs

Left to Right

First Row

Earl, Donna, Cynthia, Ruhee, me, Sonny (improperly attributed to Heather previously)

Second Row

Mom, Helene, Justin, Alan, Bob, Heather

Third Row

Blank (Riaz missing), Stephanie, Melinda, They, Lucy

This is what's there so far of LiMiNaL

From Left to Right

Earl, Ruhee, me, blank spot, not sure, Heather, blank spot, Helene, my mom, not sure, Bob, Lucy

Only one on bottom row so far Cynthia 

hung the top ones aren't finished but I hung em anyway so I can look at em

hung

finished I think

still in progress

I ended up calling this one

Wind-Up Bird Well

I was thinking about that well the whole time I was working on it

And I thought I ruined it at the point that I messed up placement and lost the curve

I'm not sure the literary references are great though 

still in progress

started

finished I think

this is also not going to be a popular decision

but

I'm not sure I'm ready to sell these

I'm not sure why

finished, I think

I was hoping to finish these today but

I've reached the

I don't want to change them

stage

so

tomorrow

Stuck in my head

Never Gonna Let You Go

I didn't show you the 9"x12" series update

maybe it goes this way now

still in progress

Possibly ruined

I'm not sure what I'm doing counts as fine art

it's maybe too

Decorative

hmmmm

possibly finished

BOOSTED 

ALSO

Do you think this is finished?

I can think of more stuff I could do to it

but I don't think it makes it better

I'm thinking of calling it

ALICE?

Lucy texted me on Saturday

telling me that I needed to email Vikki

my picture and artist statement

it hadn't occurred to me that I was doing that

I spent all weekend subsequently

giving it some thought

AND

I don't think my conclusions will be popular

I COULD put

I was born in Houston

My parents were artists

I attended HSPVA

Was a painting major for a while at UH

That's not much of a resume

So what my artist statement needs to be

IS A STATEMENT

Something that makes people connect

Want to see what I've produced

I understand that people often

Connect with the art 

Or Whatever

Because of a mystique

They FEEL something for the mystique

and THAT leads them to the work

I'm NOT READY to make a STATEMENT

I'm still figuring out this process

Style

Genre

Whatever

It's gonna HAVE to speak for itself

Because I'm not ready to tell you WHY you love it YET

AND

I'm not ready to tell anything about ME

Is that CRAZY?

_46.2. 42"

ALSO

she's finding her emotional resonance

👍

❤️

DM always makes me think of my dad

That song

is so core to me though

❤️

❤️

your painting

Stronger 

your piano is deeper somehow

❤️

ALSO

Varnished these

might use wax medium on them as well

I liked the effect on the LIMINAL one

base painting started on a new series

still in progress

This one wouldn't post right before

it wanted to post sideways

it still does

it needs to flip

turn phone 90 degrees left

IDK what's it's problem 

progress

didn't go to studio yesterday

too many hours standing on the cement floor

back needed rest

running late today

but going

I'm too attached to the new ones

I don't want to change them

especially this one

i think it will be hard to add or change it

I may just need to start more

ordered frames for the 

ibRM series 1: 1-10

just plain light wood

frames

they are 8x10 little guys

but I'm really happy with them

❤️☕

The Improved Version of Fasting Mimic I'm doing this week

Breakfast:  Cocoyo 

Prolon bar 3-4 hours later

2 Oatcakes with Chlorella 3-4 hours later

Dinner:  1/2 small spaghetti squash w/a tbsp of white miso stirred in

5 olives

a handful of dried golden berries 

Aqua Kefir 

works in progress

UPDATED in progress "LIMINAL" project for group grid

work in progress

I'm having a period

AND

I'm feeling kinda crazy

☕

❤️

ok, this may not stay (fasting weight) _48.2

❤️

ALSO

I painted 45 little 6"x8" somethings

I would not

necessarily

consider them to be completed paintings

maybe they are something

maybe not

BUT

they are what my mind made

with whatever it got

from the experience, ya know 

I'm home safe & sound

AND

I didn't even tell you

when I went to pick up the rental car

what they had for me 

was an

SUV

I'm all like NO

I'm afraid to drive an SUV

(I was supposed to have "standard size"

whatever that means)

No Extra Charge

she says

that's all I got SUVs

SO

I had to beat that fear too

YA KNOW WHAT

I LOVE SUVs

not officially

and this one was/must have been a hybrid

it did that weird

-- your engine just died thing

AND

it got 36mpg AVERAGE for the trip

which was mostly highway

BUT STILL

And ALL the SAFETY FEATURES

LOVE

Did not enjoy driving particularly

The way up was pretty bad

BACK

WAS BETTER

Returning the car in the morning 

first day of FMD. ok.

I forgot to say this morning _55.8

Car is paid for

but

picking up tomorrow

getting everything ready today

not gonna lie

kinda nervous 

the mint flavor is amazing

LABOR DAY

Today

I swept

& mopped

from 10 am 

to 4 pm

ALSO

I am driving to Fort Worth

to see the Motherwell show

I have rented the car

there will be driving

FOUR AND A HALF HOURS

ALSO

I decided I didn't want to be

just like trying to get meals on the fly

and

I thought I might do that fast mimicking diet

but

I couldn't make myself spend $170

on minestrone instant soup

and crackers

and olive snacks

SO

I made my own

it may not work as well

but I bet it does

Prolon sells the bars separately

I got a box of 12 coconut macadamia

for the crackers I ordered

Stockans Orchney Beremeal Oatcakes

for the olives I ordered

Kiwi Artisan Manuka Wood Smoked

Mixed Green & Black Olives

for the soups I ordered

Moong Pani Mung Bean Sipping Broth

(in a couple of flavors)

and the instant Miso I used to have 

back in the day

I'm doing chlorella & wheatgrass tablets

but I can't do as many as I would like

the concept is you eat food

so you're not weak or whatever

but you have to keep your numbers low enough

because if you activate one of the

 three pathways

you will NOT get that sweet sweet

AUTOPHAGY

They get "algal oil"

I been wanting to try that Orlon stuff

it's 725 calories a day

which is not a lot

if I feel unsafe at any point

I will just eat something

I did five day no food fasts in highschool

I did the Master Cleanse in 2010

and went to a job interview on day

like 6 or 7

I think I will be fine

The bars are too intense for me

I was trying it out for breakfast

I only ate half

the oatcakes have a wee bit of barley in em

don't they

they are delicious

when consumed with a cup of pu erh

🎯💎

I'm looking forward to the sipping broth 

Tomorrow

👾🫚

Have Fun!

❤️

I was hearing Fire & Flood in my head

and all of a sudden

it's talking about Gettysburg

I'm like

HUH?

so I had to figure out what was going on

My brain 🧠

is doing a mash-up

We Will Not be Divided

REM STAND is playing at Traders Joe's

Why is Spam always calling me to talk about her POTENTIAL

Still not archived

43"

_56.8

_58.0

_60.2

I wasn't able to listen live

it's not archived yet

I hope it was FUN 😁

❤️

it's a little better today 

I am full on depressed 

I ordered a pair of jeans

on clearance $17

I guessed size 20

Usually jeans need to be a bigger size

than stretchier fabrics

I wore it to work last Monday (a week)

it fit pretty good

I didn't like the big holes in the legs

it was a high cotton (only like 1% spandex)

by the end of the day they were loose

I am returning them (I think)

I ordered the clearance Universal Standard Jeans

size 18 they fit a little tight

But they're sort of skinny-ish

I ordered a pair on eBay

Size 16, black (different style)

figured I'd have em ready

BUT

I tried em on

THEY FIT

(they are tight in the waist)

But when I looked at them

I was LIKE they are NEVER gonna fit

They look so SMALL

I LOVE UNIVERSAL STANDARD

They are my new jean Brand 

_61.4

_62.8

I'm not sure I'm writing that

My back and hip have been out

I feel more somatic about my weight loss

LIKE I CAN FEEL MY BONES

well not all of them

but MORE

it's weird 

My 25 year old WEIGHT

1992

DRACULA

LA POLICE

My first time living alone

(in progress)

_65.0

technical difficulties

_66.0

_66.8

_69.0

_70.6

_71.2

_72.2

_73.4

_74.0

_75.6

_76.4