a lot happened today i fell asleep in the chair drinking my tonic which is why this is so late

i customized my first imperfect produce box

i'm not sure what i ordered qualifies as a small box any longer

i started out with 8 items suggested for me
i ran to the back and whipped out my phone
at the first possible minute
i usually don't get my second break
but
i didn't want stuff to be all gone

they had micro green--  spicy blend--  i ordered 5, cause 5 days, right
tomato (2 count)--  i ordered 3--  cause 5 days, right
green beans--  1 bag  (1 pound i think)
mandarin oranges--  i ordered 2 pounds
that might be too much
serrano peppers
pablano peppers (those are for dinner, stuffed)
i got a 2 pound bag of brown rice which is also for dinners
some ginger
and some seaweed snacks

so my plan is micro green salad with green beans
(any extra i will have for dinner
but have you had raw green beans?  they are delicious)
tomato (they are promising beefsteak) for mains
and i'm making a salad dressing
with mandarin, ginger, serrano, and a little olive oil
i'll blend it up in the ninja
and take it in this cute little lunchable container
i got from the grove collective
(the tree free toilet paper people)

i had all these healthy bars and butternut squash
and a bunch of other stuff
but i took it off
my thought was
i'm doing this quick
before they run out
you can always take it off later
and
i was sorry that i hadn't put on another green bean
because the more i thought about it the more i wanted more green beans
but
by the time i got done with my mom at 9
they didn't have any more

so
i'm excited
and it's like $40.
which doesn't seem like much of a savings
but
each individual thing seemed very well priced
especially for organic
so we'll see

my tonic arrived
i love her packaging
it tastes like all those tinctures, kind of
but
a little like campari
so
i'm leaning into that
i put a half teaspoon in my glass i use for margarita
added sparkling water and ice
and it's all melty because i fell asleep
but
i'm charmed
day 2 without coffee
was a little less rough

i got a new brick of pu-ehr
and when it came
i was a little miffed because it was the smallest thing you've ever seen
like 4"x4"
and i'm like
yeah
there's 4 cups for ya
but no
it's amazingly dense
you cannot break it
so i'm there with a knife
trying to scrape off enough to make a cup
like it was some fancy new drug
again, i'm charmed
it's good too
rich and dense, intensely earthy


i went to dinner with my mom
and
i got baby kale salad
and sugar snap peas cooked with mushroom sized onions
and it was so so good
my mother says she's been to the doctor
and had a physical
and she's living 15 more years
now
in december
she had been to her heart doctor
and he said she had deteriorated a lot because of
the stress of dealing with shirley (her sister)
so
i'm not sure how to reconcile those 2 opposing
supposed facts
my mother is an unreliable narrator
so who knows
she seems fine
but
frail
shorter
and very very slow


i love you very much sweetheart
goodnight
love,
        rose