i had the worst dream last night

there was a bunch of not bad stuff
but
the
bad was brutal

i was talking to this woman
she was an iridologist
and she looked into my eyes
intensely
and
she told me:

you have stomach cancer

now
it's not so much
that i believe in iridology
i don't know enough about it to know
but i'm inclined not to give it much credibility

but
it freaked me the fuck out

i woke up
and
i had a hard time going back to sleep

because
why would i tell myself that
if there was nothing
wrong with me

and
my mother's mother
when she finally went to the doctor
was full up with cancer
which
we're not sure
but
it probably started in her stomach

really really bad dream