OH

I forgot 

I took these pictures 

of art that really 

attracted me

this one was reflected in a previous photo

I really like it 

& crap I don't have the name

hang on DENISE GIORDANO

&

this one I'm kinda at a loss to explain 

MAYBE if you can

expand it

idk I just THOUGHT 

I wouldn't MIND to look at THAT 

EVERY day

I can't find the artists name

they are at ARCHWAY GALLERY 

they have an online

I LOOKED through it 

can't find THIS 

there are jim jarmusch films 

which I have missed

he has one about

VAMPIRES

I STILL haven't seen 

I THINK 

BUT MAYBE 

I have

I've watched so many clips

I'm not even sure 

TODERO

has been kinda

on the list to see for a WHILE 

chaplin is amazing

BUT 

that made me think of

BENNY & JOON

which wasn't a chaplin reference 

it was buster keaton

BUT 

BENNY & JOON was important to me 

AND

isn't that proclaimers song in THAT 

I went back through 

the only ones 

I actually haven't seen 

don't look back

Hal's moving castle 

BUT 

the only one I've seen

within the last few years 

SULLIVAN'S TRAVELS

which I love

but

only know about

because of you

which is STRANGE 

because 

I specifically have an attachment 

to Veronica Lake

because my gran gran

really liked her

& we watched her movies*

*in the different sort of way one did before you had a choice because of course you could just go stream something, you had to read the TV guide and plan

SO

NOT 

like binge watch 

the whole catalog 

ALSO 

she's from Texas

I hope you're having a beautiful day sweetheart 

I REALLY gotta 

start sleeping 

OR

figure out 

how to make not sleeping 

WORK 

goodnight sweetheart 

I LOVE you VERY much 

👾🫚

I JUST saw

MOMENTO and it's 

LIKE 

I need to watch it 

AGAIN*

*seriously, but I'm not going to

I watched MOMENTO again

I feel like 

that MIGHT 

be a SELFISH decision 

BUT 

once I SAID 

they WERE my psyche

& these weren't 

DIFFICULT 

picks

THEN

I had to ANALYZE my list

😜

I used to love woody Allen films

I feel certain I saw take the money and run

& see

that gets into

part of why I'm not very good at lists

because there's a WAY 

in which it just goes into a separate 

SOMETHING 

it's like the director 

is important to me BUT 

all their WORK 

sort of 

LIVES 

and picking ONE piece 

OUT 

doesn't make SENSE 

SOMEHOW 

I MEAN 

MAYBE my favorite 

woody Allen

is Hannah and her sisters

BUT 

I can't think about whole swaths

WITHOUT 

.................WHEAT

THAT was FUN

I feel like

I should now tell you

my favorite movies

& or

watch yours

which I largely 

either haven't seen 

or saw long enough ago

that they aren't fresh to mind

BUT 

I don't think a day of movies is going to work 

at least not today 

&

I have loved movies all my life

& studied a bunch in college 

AND

I'm honestly not sure 

HOW 

to pick

LIKE the thing with me is

I could make a list NOW 

& a list in six months 

would they be the SAME 

probably not 

SO

I THINK today

the criteria I would use

is

what movies do I THINK about

LIKE core part of my psyche

would there be ten 

of THOSE 

& I realize that might not be the same as FAVORITE 

the old original black & white NOSFERATU

KEY LARGO 

BLADE RUNNER 

AMALIE

I have to look this up I can't remember the name* 

IDENTITY*

FIFTH ELEMENT 

MOMENTO

the ROYAL TENENBAUMS

CLERKS

YOUNG FRANKENSTEIN 

I feel like favorite 

might really mean something different 

BUT 

these are the ones

that impacted me

in a way

that they intrude themselves 

into my THINKING process 

BUT 

some of my favorite directors 

aren't even on this list

I am FUNDAMENTALLY

poorly suited to lists

when I was growing up 

I loved

the marx brothers

laurel & hardy

& the three stooges 

I watched whatever was available 

with my gran gran

also

all those Crosby & Hope buddy funny movies

my father was so heavily influenced 

by rebel without a cause

that when I saw it

I felt like

I had just been handed

a f*CKing DECODER RING

I think I watched some of that cartoon

it was like

BEETLEJUICE 

meets

DROP DEAD FRED

LOVE BEETLEJUICE 

nightmare before Christmas 

I saw in theatre

& I was really really high

SO I love it

BUT 

it was more of a shamanic experience 

which maybe lifts it out

of the ability to be 

a favorite movie

YEAH

heavily gen X influenced 

BREAKFAST club

was like

a gen X anthem

sorta

if she's got buckaroo bansai

on her list

I'm gonna freak out

it's a SHAME

when they're throwing away 

a perfectly good white boy

you mentioned it to me in 2008

so you saw it before THAT

OK

I'm awake 

Christopher Guest

I'm all like

The MIGHTY WIND?

BUT of course I loved spinal tap

saw that in the theatre just didn't associate 

a name

anyway 

listening & getting food 

& CAFFEINE 

goodnight sweetheart 

I LOVE you VERY much 

👾🫚

❤️

WARNING 

this is probably NOT interesting 

I have found some BRAs

I REALLY like

BUT 

they are a DIFFERENT brand 

than I've been buying 

FOR a WHILE 

THIS one though 

is the old brand 

BREEZIES

I put it on last night

I SLEPT in it

AND I WORE it ALL day

& I NEVER 

want to take it off

it doesn't LOOK 

all THAT 

it's a large

which SURPRISED me

I thought I ordered XL

it's COMPREHENSIVE and

THAT 

is a trend

I LOOKED at my bye bye ARMs

& was all LIKE 

yeah, why are y'all 

doing so much WORSE 

than EVERYTHING 

ELSE

SHORT ANSWER 

not wearing 

ANYTHING COMPRESSIVE on the

ARMs

I'm not someone who EVER even wore FITTED 

I just put on my FIRST 

LONG sleeve

COMPRESSION*

*we're not talking medical grade we're talking cheap Amazon 15% spandex

& honestly it MIGHT not 

be tight enough 

BUT 

THIS is PLENTY weird enough 

to be getting on with

ROSETTA stone

I have interest in TRANSFER PORTAL 

I KINDA know what it is

BUT 

it's KINDA new, right

HOCUS POCUS JUNK 

SPIKE!!!

INTERNSHIP=abuse & a guaranteed future

we will NOT do any paperwork 

I think I used to be pretty good

at tying a tie

I had a tie & smoking jacket phase

UConn PURDUE final

the case for skill over magic

leave me ALONE about the MID majors

I've never REALLY listened

to SPORTS radio

THAT'S the GENRE 

I SHOULD 

be addressing, assessing

THE BEST PASSER 

SOUTH CAROLINA could beat themselves 

CAITLIN CLARK!!!

CONTEXT

the CHANGE thing, though

{GRANDMA moment}

THEY DON'T even FACE the BILLS 

AT THE BANK

REECE'S is bomb

BARBER or CLOWN

treading water in the caffeine pool

MARTY ROBBINS guitar

GREAT emails TODAY 

THAT was FUN 

I have enough bandwidth 

for one, I think

BUT 

the other one

I think I want to do TOMORROW 

I was having some trouble earlier 

BUT I'm tired

& SOMETIMES 

it's JUST 

STUFF 

doesn't WORK 

when I'm TIRED 

OK

I had to decompress from that

MOM STUFF 

AND

I want to first apologize 

I SAID 

a while BACK 

I was SURPRISED how WELL 

you kept me OUT 

&

I SEE where THAT 

was the WRONG way to express 

WHAT I was trying to SAY

Im SORRY 

I don't want to EXPLAIN 

because I think you KNOW what I MEAN 

& public

AND

I THINK you knew what I MEANT 

BUT maybe not

it was a calibration thing 

I can usually get the points to line up

pretty quickly

THAT'S a specific 

TYPE 

of OUT 

it was ACTUALLY 

KINDA 

MEANT as a compliment 

BUT 

I LOOKED at that

and I was all LIKE yeah

you should apologize 

I have unpleasant things to do today 

CLEANING at

my mom's house 

SO

I got a LATE start 

& I MIGHT 

have trouble with stuff 

I SEE 

BUT have not YET 

PROCESSED 

PLEASE do not expect 

GREATNESS 

TODAY 

because I typically have a bad reaction to 

this sh*t, but it needs to be done

I LOVE you VERY much 

👾🫚

❤️

good morning sweetheart 

I LOVE you VERY much 

goodnight sweetheart

I LOVE you VERY much

👾🫚

OK

IDK what's going on

BUT it's pretty

INTENSE

here

South Carolina is the top ranked

UConn is men's

women is 10th

ALSO

my therapist DIDN'T KNOW

what 

WALK it OFF

means

LIKE even technically

when I was a KID I was trying to EXPLAIN

I would WAKE up

in the night

with terrible charley-horses

my DADDY told

and showed me how to WALK it OFF

AND

honestly

maybe it's stuff like THAT

THAT makes me

of course

I'm eating HALF a teaspoon

at a TIME 

&

I can SEE

HOW

it

might get away from you 

PEANUT butter

is a THING it's gonna be SOMETHING

THIS is NOT

.......THAT......

I didn't like peanut butter

GROWing up

my DADDY

binge ate it in the NIGHT

when I STOPPED eating meat

my BODY was all like

DO NOT get BETWEEN me

& some *PEANUT butter

*********mutha-f*CKin

BUT my GATEWAY

into peanut butter

was REECE'S 

SO

I MEAN

!

THIS peanut butter tho

it SEPARATES

AND

I'm NOT stirring

I'm AVOIDING

as much OIL as possible

THAT makes for

a TEXTURE

that makes me

UNDERSTAND

HOW

my 

daddy

told me SOMETIMES

I ALMOST died last night

AND then

he'd tell me the STORY

I THOUGHT

it was SURPRISING

that the Washington Post

wasn't behind

a paywall

BUT

it was a not YET situation

ya done read yer two articles see

NOW

I THINK I've mentioned BEFORE

BUT it might've been fifteen years ago

when I went with my MOM

to see the Georgia O'Keefe exhibit

at the NATIONAL GALLERY

when I was, I THINK

in high school

in the morning

at BREAKFAST

I read the WP

& it had WORDS I DIDN'T KNOW

AND

I f*CKing LOVED that

EVER SINCE

I have KINDA thought of it

as MY newspaper

like OF CHOICE mine

which is ridiculous

because

I almost NEVER actually

LIKE read it

& it's not like

SUPER expensive or anything

BUT

I ALREADY

SUBSCRIBED to

the ECONOMIST & the PARIS REVIEW

🔮🪔

I KNOW

it was Margaret Atwood

I'm PRETTY sure

it was a short story

I THINK

it MIGHT have been CALLED

the Americans

hang on 

NO I am unable to CONFIRM

SO I'm going with

THAT was not the title

the family

in the STORY

was at some lake

for the SUMMER and they encountered

some people who were assholes

they CALLED them

THE AMERICANS all summer

even though 

they found out

half way through that they

we're ALSO CANADIAN like 

the FAMILY

I LOVE you 🫶

SO

I learned stuff today

(I'm not claiming that this is interesting)

my mom

said something about

the MEXICAN has station

& I'm all like

WHAT mexican gas station

she's like

the one ACROSS the STREET

I'm like

you mean VALERO

she's like YES

I'm LIKE

do you actually have some knowledge

that it's MEXICAN

OR are you just saying that

because it SOUNDS

vaguely Hispanic

THAT

so I LOOKED it up

it started in HOUSTON

it's named after

MISSION san Antonio de VALERO 

which was apparently

the ORIGINAL name

of the ALAMO 

OK

so then WHY is it called the ALAMO

the mexican soldiers

found the mission abandoned

& they CALLED it

EL ALAMO

BECAUSE it was surrounded by

COTTONWOOD trees

which apparently translates to ALAMOS

BUT ALSO

they were mostly from

ALAMO de PARRAS 

I've never heard about any of that

& it never occurred to me

that there WAS a story

ALLERGIES

this is like a top five city

for BAD allergies

& I've been alternating

between

stopped up

&

DRIP

TODAY is a drip day

😜

I just saw on the screen

over the bar

IOWA v UConn

FRIDAY

that's gonna be tough, right

OR

have I got it wrong

& it's just the men's team

at uconn

I've had a little

like FOLK medley

stuff

from my childhood

going in my HEAD

Oh my darlin

Oh my darlin

Oh my darlin clementine

wearing boxes

without topses

She'll be comin round the mountain

when she comes

She'll be comin round the mountain

when she comes

I'm at lunch with my mom

LOOK at the building now

it seems like

it's taking them so long to finish

i hope you're having a beautiful day sweetheart

❤️👾🫚

I dreamed

I was in a small town

SOMEPLACE came open

& I was kinda trying to figure out

who 

how

what

was gonna be living with me

& there was more

I don't remember about that

BUT

I went outside and

the street I was walking

a big group of women was also walking

in sets of twos and threes

and they were wearing BLACK

CONSPICUOUSLY

but not like ALL black

NOT mourning like

&

the two women behind me

we're walking FAST enough

that it was stressing me out a little

keeping pace

SO

I just encouraged them to go

AHEAD of me

DON'T KNOW what that means 

DAISY

you drive me CRAZY

& you must've drove the other fellas WILD

DAISY

you drive me crazy

you must have been a BEAUTIFUL child

stuck in my HEAD 

goodnight sweetheart

I LOVE you VERY much

👾🫚

WEATHER

I can ALSO do show tunes from the 1940s

POWDER of STARDOM

WOMEN are KINDA like REAL people

I LOVE that you used the word

EMANCIPATION

COMPETITION doesn't necessarily

equal animosity

CC is more like LUKA

than Steph Curry

EXTRA BURST

maybe not

BUT

she's the BEST PASSER

SEE this

Carel "SAYS" BULLSHIT

is NOT endearing GRANDPA

SWEENEY TODD situation

SO

ALL DAY so far

it's alternating between

SWELLING strains of

NIGHT and DAY

YOU are the ONE

&

Caitlin Clark

SO

MAYBE

you're thinking about me

OR

you are doing something INTERESTING

OH wait it's Wednesday

I'm not quite ready to listen to TK

STUFF

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart

👾🫚

goodnight sweetheart

I LOVE you VERY much

👾🫚

NOW

I got Caitlin Clark in my HEAD 

AND

I really should

go to bed

I want to TALK

BUT

I'm KINDA babbling 

I did do that Washington Post thing

right apparently

I got a Barry Svrluga today

I was happy to see

HEAVY use

of -- DASHES --

ALSO

he does a thing

I have done in the past

but not here because it just never

comes up, I guess

working quotes into a narrative

rather than like

QUOTE

blah blah blah

ANYWAY I guess what I'm saying is

there's a familiarity to the way

he's talking about stuff

BUT

I think that means

I'mma know more about the NATs

than really makes any sense 

ALSO

I'm getting these songs

which thankfully Ellie overwrote

BUT

they were not happy

just this evening

earlier was those ones I said before

BUT

I don't know

I SORT of think

it was the sound more than

the lyrics

I'm not SURE what

THAT means exactly for interpretation

am I doing something with SOUND

there's a WAY in which I

FEEL like

I've lost the thread of myself

SOMEHOW

& MAYBE that's not bad

it could be an opportunity

JUST hazy 

AND

I'm not sure WHAT I'm doing

in therapy

it FEELS like

I'm doing SOMETHING

BUT

it's some dynamic

I don't understand

& that sounds WEIRD

and it is weird

I FEEL like I'm ALWAYS

saying things are WEIRD

and I don't think any of the weirdness

is individually

significant

BUT

I'm a little worried about the PATTERN

of WEIRD

if that makes ANY sense 

I've been thinking

about your

RICE

which seems a little random

I think MAYBE

SINCE

I'm SO obsessed with FOOD

I have MORE interest

in YOUR what

THOUGHTS

about food

BUT

that feels kinda weird and like

WEIRD

it's NOT IMPORTANT

I wouldn't like

ASK you

it's just something

I THINK about 

I have

Ellie Della Cruz

STUCK

on repeat in my HEAD

it is really really REALLY really catchy

I AM

MAYBE

a little obsessed with food

I have been really craving

well, all kinds of nuts

REALLY

but peanut butter

SPECIFICALLY

& last time

I was at whole foods

I was looking for the maharantha banana PB

I wasn't SURE

whether I was gonna get it or not

I was gonna LOOK

see if it wasn't too fattening

BUT

they didn't have it

SO

I saw this kind

I thought I remembered

being GOOD

& it is really really really good

SANTA CRUZ organic

DARK ROASTED peanuts

HIGHLY recommend 

STUCK in my HEAD

got a gal named DAISY

almost drives me CRAZY

got a GAL named daisy

ALMOST drives me crazy

got GAL named DAISY

wop ba baloo ma

ba whop BAMM boo

are those two things related?

they don't SEEM

to be

I had long involved dreams

BUT

all I remember

when I woke up

SOME guy

kept calling me

or saying to me

that's why you're

a CRACKER 

just that part

since I woke up

STUCK in my HEAD

oooOooooOooooO

race you to

the moon

goodnight sweetheart

I LOVE you VERY much

👾🫚

LUCY

was telling me about

her easter

in which church featured

& she was telling me

the kids were

in there

NOT off at Sunday school or something

they had activity bags

or something

& she's all like

you know how kids are

and I'm like

well, I guess

but really

I don't know about church

I don't know about kids, really

& I don't know

about kids in church

it felt KINDA weird

AND

VIKKI is all like

she doesn't have kids

or grandchildren LUCY

how is she supposed to KNOW about them

THAT

felt simultaneously

LIKE she was sticking up for me

BUT ALSO

kinda WEIRD 

I backed it up

to hear again

at regular time

I really enjoyed it BETTER

at 1.7 time

it sounded like harpsichord at 1.7

SPORTS YAP

ALL the BIGS are invited

even the ones

without

a chuck & Roxy number

HAIKU from shad

COWS & AVOCADOS

I cannot get down with 🥑 ice cream

I like my 🥑 to be savory

JUAN SOTO

there it is -- that's how you're SUPPOSED to hit

a HOT START

can change EVERYTHING

OHTANI

is butcher box still a sponsor?

I signed up to get emails from Washington Post

to get barry svrluga

& I must have done it wrong

SOMEHOW

because I'm getting

hey what about THIS

type emails

BUT

NO barry svrluga

I don't think he needs to stop payment

if they make it to where they're going

he'll just have a credit

BUT

they won't

make it 

probably

WOMEN aren't supposed to be

CHIPPY

it's a problem

if you're FEMALE

it's not the STICKS

it's ME

FRIED SHRIMP

CANDY KITCHEN!!!

lit up from BLOCKS AWAY

george continued to say nothing

WOW gambling support

MESSAGE is wild 😜

OK

I'mma listen to TK now

it was stuck in my head

I went looking for a video

I found Billie Holliday

I love Billie holiday

but

that wasn't the version in my head

so I put it in the playlist

it IS a little 💙

BUT

Billie Holliday

SORRY

if it was confusing 

working today

I see there's a new TK

BUT

I won't be able listen

until tonight

hope you're having a FUN day

👾🫚

GOOD morning sweetheart

❤️