or i didn't try very hard to go to sleep
and that happens with some regularity
i'd normally just go to work on three hours sleep
but
i woke up with a migraine-esque headache
and again i'd normally just go to work
but
i didn't
i decided i needed no to
and i thought i'd spend the day
writing to you
but
i didn't
i felt bad
but i couldn't go back to sleep
[repeated texts]
so i mostly watched videos on youtube
i watched this whole documentary about this woman in romania
having a 158 pound tumor removed
but it was voice-over-dubbed in russian
almost an hour
then i watched plastic surgery videos
i am shocked and amazed to see all the things fillers can do
i been religiously
putting baby collagen growing serum on my face
boom
five minutes with filler
that botox is some messed up shit though
i'm not doing that, ever
i wanted to talk about some serious stuff
but now
i don't want anything heavy
i'd like to just collapse against you
i'm not even sure i could handle anything much else
but i do wish i could kiss you
and
maybe we could flop down onto something comfortable
and watch something mind-numbingly beautiful
or have the kids run back and forth
over the top of us
till we finally pull them down into a big heap with us
that's what i want to do tonight
we'll have to conceive them on another night
i love you
