i hope you got to read that

because i didn't feel comfortable leaving it up
i don't think it's a good story
but i do think
it makes me feel exposed
and
yesterday i found out i had some kind of inspection today
and that also made me feel vulnerable
and
that wasn't what i wanted from that story
it's too much wind up
i thought maybe i could weave it
but
it loses the poetry
it loses the zen


maybe you're unhappy that i didn't finish
i'm sorry
and i feel awkward now