thoughts toward the end of the year

last year
love you though i might
i could not reach, what was it 200 posts
this year
with everything
easily, over 300 posts
with a fair number additional that i didn't post
for one reason and another

i think, though
that there wasn't any baby
and i'm not sure why i created that
or how
and, of course
that makes me question
if, didn't i just, make it all up

but i didn't
even if i did, see

and i love you
even though i don't understand

have wonderment and joy on your special day
and don't think about me, at all
that's only right

not like i won't talk at you before then
but i'm not gonna say it again

it is what it is