went a few rounds with ernest today-- walking to island in the stream

i decided
to walk to whole foods
and carry my groceries back
which i thought was about 2 miles each way
except i took the long way there, apparently
so it was 4 miles there...

i was listening to island in the stream

and when i came out of whole foods
with my abbreviated groceries
because i was going to have to schlep em

i didn't realize i had gone 4 miles
i just felt really bad about myself
because
i didn't think
i could do that again

so i thought
well
there's a bus stop about a mile away
i'll just walk there
feeling really bad about being a failure

but
on the way to the bus stop
davey wrestled the fish for 5 hours
i cried

so when i got to the bus stop
i was like:
really
after that
you're gonna prove yourself a pussy

so i walked the rest of the way
which
the way i went back
was only 2
carrying
maybe 20