i can live apart from you, if i have to

that's established, i guess
but
i hope
it is also established
that i can't live without you
and
that thing i said
about being able to
completely manufacture you
unless i'm doing that these days
is completely wrong now
though
i thought i could
since i did ten years ago

as much as it hurt me
when you did that thing
if i coulda lived without you
i woulda done it then