i had this thought today

i'm not sure if it had significance
from like my perspective
but then
meta
or whatever takes a double

you remember the picture of me
dance recital
chest out
arms wide
looking more like a merman [ethel] than waif

well
that dance recital was the day my brother was born
and my father was there
which
i gotta say
probably did not help my relationship with my stepmother

so i though about
what that meant
and, i mean, it was different times
he wasn't going to be at the birth

but he got to skip out on the labour
or had to sacrifice a precious moment with his wife
his beloved
the mother of his child
in order to be there for me

and
i'd never seen it quite that way before