I've spent the last twenty years telling you about myself which maybe I should have mentioned and maybe I haven't

you know more about me

than anyone else in the world

or, indeed

than anyone who has ever lived in this world

I get that I'm weird

different

motivated by different things

but

I feel like you understood that the stakes

we're pretty high for me

and from my perspective

it looks like you said

what was that thing that really hurt you last time

I didn't look at you, cool, let's double down

I won't look at you

AND

I will not even in fact recognize you

AND

when you ask

I will say exactly what I would say

to someone I didn't recognize

This would make sense

if what you wanted was for me to say

Oh well, guess I'm crazy after all

OR if you're fucking Valmont

OR if I'm some crazy chick you're trying to shake

BUT I don't believe that