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working at art supply in the morning

gotta sleep fast

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I'm behind on all listening

I worked at art supply late

and

I have to go back in the morning

I love you very much

I have to sleep fast

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The imperfect is coming

Wednesday it change days

I ordered

I have an actual plan in my head

To make an Asian pear slaw

They're sending me but hopefully they're sending me Asian pears

And Napa cabbage

And I'm like seriously

Is this something you're really going to do

Where's this just a fantasy and you're going to end up using them other ways or throw them away

And I'm like doesn't Asian pear slaw sound delicious

And I'm like I don't know I'm not sure that it does

Then they have that lesser evil popcorn

That I love

And I'm all like I want four bags of that

And I'm like you're on a clenze

The computer dictation knows by now that cleanse is ironical sort of I guess and hence the new spelling

It is super healthy I'm screaming at myself

It is a snack

NO

So I'm getting a lot of avocados like six or eight avocados

Like four grapefruit juice

Some non-fat yogurt Greek yogurt

The Asian pears

I think two grapefruits maybe I took those off cuz I was giving the grapefruit juice

But I think I thought I had all those avocados and I make a really good salad with avocado and grapefruit and it boosts your glutathione

Got some Meyer lemons

They're just really nice lemons

And they've always got lemons

But they don't always have Meyer lemons

I took all the breads off

I usually get if I'm ordering from them

A sprouted I think it's mixed grains or ancient grains or something like that but it's sprouted

I took off the eggs

I took off the vegan butter

I'm not really sure why I left the non-fat yogurt

Except that it's kind of a comfort food for me so and sometimes I feel like it's the best thing

And then I got

Pecan milk

I'm very excited about the pecan milk

I had I think it was walnut milk

But I'm not 100% sure

And it was like the most delicious thing ever in the history of the world but then it was never available again

But pecans are delicious

I'm not entirely certain I don't like pecans better than walnuts

And so far I'm pretty generally a fan of nut milks

And pretty generally a fan of plant milks

Although maybe not every use of a plant milk is successful

And fish

They had mahi and they had cod

If they come frozen

Then I will put them in the freezer

And I'm planning to eat some fish with brown rice and greens later on in the week

I have some fish already in the freezer then I'm going to eat and this will become the backup fish

But sometimes it comes and it's already thawed enough that you have to go ahead and eat it in which case I'll just be eating that fish

I often do some sort of cleanse

At the beginning of the year

And this year I had kind of a hard time deciding

And in fact

It's been more like

I don't really know what it's been more like

It's not a cleanse

And I have eaten

Foods that I would not consider to be cleanse foods

But I'm still kind of

I think maybe what I'm doing now

Rotating back through

Things that I've done in the past

But what I've learned about myself

I want to have one skincare routine that I can do all the time same thing you know

I want to have one kind of food thing that I do

But it doesn't work

I can say I want salads

And I eat salads for 1 week

Well then I don't want salads

I just had a week's worth of salads

You know I don't care what the raw food people say they're only so many salads you can make

Now if you just throw a bunch of raw food into a bowl and call that a salad then I guess you've got as many different things as you have ingredients

But why chop those all up and mix them together you know why not eat them separately

Anyway

I'm doing that thing where I'm trying to be more aware of what I want

And the other day I really wanted a smoothie

Now you know I'm not that much of a smoothie person

Generally

I have had them sure I have enjoyed them sure but they're just not a thing I typically do

And fruit sometimes I have to be a little bit careful if I get too much fruit sometimes then I get gassy and that's unpleasant from a variety of perspectives

So there were some juice places

I wanted to smoothie

And there are a variety of smoothie places

But the first thing that came up with smoothie King

And I don't think of smoothie King is particularly healthy

Smoothie King is not the thing you're getting on the way to yoga smoothie King is the thing you're getting after you go to the gym or maybe before you go to the gym if you're a bodybuilder or whatever right or smoothie King is where you go if you're you know a dieter where you want them to put artificial sweeteners or whatever I don't know

And you know I think of them as being artificial

But for some reason I thought yes smoothie King

And I found the section where it had the things that weren't ice cream based

That weren't frozen yogurt based

It's like orange extreme or something

So it's got orange juice

And normally it has bananas

But when your ordering things from DoorDash everything's got a button right You know check here to remove this and that and whatever

So I remove the bananas

Which have too much sugar and will cause me to have stomach issues

And I replaced it with pineapple because

The added juice it had in it was apple pineapple juice

And I'm like I don't want apple pineapple juice that's too much sugar The apple juice adds too much sugar and that's going to cost me trouble

So I added in the pineapple to take into account the fact that I didn't have the pineapple juice

And instead I substituted papaya juice

Well papaya juice blend so I probably ended up with the apple there anyway because it doesn't say what that means

But I do really well with the papaya juice and it's really really low sugar

And then I added in almond milk

To give it a little bit of that kind of creaminess that it won't have because it doesn't have the banana

The recipe originally had turbinado sugar because apparently fruit is not sweet enough without adding sugar so I removed that

And they've got all those fun boosts

So I got a metabolism boost

And it was really really good

So this week

I'm doing smoothies

Cantaloupe

Frozen peaches

Pineapple juice with some amount of mango puree

Sadly they did not have papaya juice

And almond milk

Add some salad ingredients left over

So I had a cucumber and tomato salad

But then later I had some brown rice

But I had a jar of some kind of chili crisp

And I put a bunch of that on the brown rice

So see it's not officially cleanse

Brown rice is cleanse

Chili crisp not so much

So I realized

I don't think I've said anything more about that dress

I didn't sign up to do the hundred day thing

Because

I don't want to take selfies

Minutes one thing to take a face selfie

It's another thing to have to figure out how to take a selfie of myself where you can see what I'm wearing

That's just too much right now

And also

I didn't want to wear that every single day

I wanted to have a little bit of

Flexibility

But I have worn it at least half the time

With leggings

And I've got to say

It is really strange

I mean I have been wearing clothes

That are big enough

That you won't see fat

It's big enough that it just glides over it

And now I'm wearing this outfit that

I mean it barely covers me

And it's thin material

And the leggings

If I tried to wear my underwear under them it made an enormous line

Cuz I guess the edge of the boy shorts when you pull up the tights it pulls it I don't know it folds it over whatever and so I was like well you know

Underwear is kind of redundant

So I'm wearing the leggings

Commando

I have not been sleeping well

I've had a headache for 3 days

I just got a new bottle of melatonin

after being out for a good minute

I took some

and I'm falling asleep

I keep almost dropping my phone

I love you 

Art supply tomorrow

gotta sleep fast

I love you sweetheart 

I love you 

My mother said something the other day to me about doing something with me on my birthday and she seemed so happy at the idea I just didn't have the heart to be like I don't want to go out with you on my birthday

I didn't really have plans you know

I had plans to make plans but hadn't made plans

So I went out with my mom for my birthday

We went to the archway gallery

Saw the new show that was set up

And then I've been wanting to go to cleburne cafeteria the whole pandemic

So we went to cleburne for lunch

I had tomato and cucumber salad and liver onions and squash casserole with unsweetened iced tea and custard for dessert

The Merle Norman free gift was out today

I got some more miracol mask and do they had a lipstick that they brought back from there early collections for their 90-year anniversary called pink red and I got that

The free gift has a pretty good size sample of there wrinkle smoother eye cream and a fairly small sample of the wrinkle smoother face cream and there's also an exfoliating scrub and a decent size sample of the retinol night serum which I've used before and liked pretty well

Then I went to the grocery store

And got sushi

And cake

It was not a bad birthday

I love you

very much

sweetheart 💋

It was hot

But now it's cold again

Well I mean not like super cold but like brrrrr

I'm wanting to reach out to you

Grabbing your hand

But somehow in all that there's a treehouse

I don't know what that is about

I mean I had a tree house when I was a kid

Briefly

Do you have some story with a treehouse

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I'm working in the morning

I painted these earlier

I'm still experimenting with the Michael Harding

and these

are paper experiments

the first is HP (hot press)

the second is CP (NOT)

which is cold press not rough (I think)

I like the hot press better

which of course I do

I have a bunch of cold press of varying types

I'm going to go to bed now

I have more 

but I haven't worked it all out in my head yet

also

I'm watching this show on Hulu

cause I've got Hulu, ya know

that Jason said

it was a crime against humanity

that I hadn't seen it

The Mighty Boosh

I watched a few episodes and

I was like, hmmm

but then I saw something

and I can't remember what

because it was eclipsed by the cheese song

and I thought

it really is a crime against humanity

that I haven't seen this show

goodnight sweetheart I love you very much 💋

Really weird thunderstorm 

Rolling in

Sounded like an explosion

Sounded like building demolition

I went to the door 

I was afraid to open it

Peaked out the blinds

Lightning

But it just doesn't sound like any lightning I've ever heard

I'm in bed

Cat sleeping on me

I'm listening to the thunder

And I think I'm going to fall asleep

this area still has stuff I'm working on

sorting the shells

hanging the pictures

I love you