i haven't been talking
and i think maybe you want me to talk
i think maybe i might be a little mood swingy
or really
it's more like
air and water are different realities
and i'm bobbing over under over under thinking i breathe one and then the other
my mother signed an apparently not really binding contract to sell her house to the neighbor
now the guy from the retirement place is AWOL incommunicado
she specifically didn't want to go to the studio today
until last night
when her plans for her friend turned out to be wrong day
and then she wanted me to finish hanging everything today
i was going to go to be early
i set an alarm
i was going to drive myself
i did go to bed between 11:30 and 12:00
i slept super soundly until about 4:00
then could not go back to sleep until 7:00
then could not wake up till 10:30
i thought
i am not moving fast and she's supposed to be here at 12:30
she didn't come till 1:15 and we didn't get there till 2:00
then
then she said she had a mind hive zoom that evening
and we had to leave at 4:00
i'm not sure if she's losing her marbles
or
if she's just slightly more annoying than usual
anyway, it's mostly done
i've been irritable
mildly aggressive, i think
but i've completely changed the novel
it sounded too crazy
too personal
now it's sort of set in the metaverse
or at least a more pumped up virtual world
the main character is (i think) named Lucky
she is a sort of psychic sort of influencer
advice columnist
law of attraction - manifestation coach
whatever kind of thing
and somehow she ends up solving mysteries
i'm still having some trouble working that out
where is the mystery coming from
what is the mystery
but she still has the reality tv girl on the boat
and the girl building the cult in the desert
but
they are friend clients now
they are currently world building elements
but they are mysteries in book two and three
book one is going to center on the No. 5 Muncheee
which is the virtual edible shack
not just thc, every kind of health and mood altering thing is possible
you talk to the avatars
U-me Atchu and Ty[irie]Ne
and then it's delivered to you by drone
but they talk to a lot of people in the area
and they know what's going on
mr sluggo might be virtual
or he might be all in her head
but he definitely leaves her slug trail notes
since it's Lucky-- LVCCI [i might think of something better] LuckE
i'd like to work jack in there mysteriously, somehow
also, is there a funkier way to spell jack-- J@K, J^K
i might change these names
but i feel pretty good about U-me Atchu and Ty[irie]Ne
U-me is small and about half anime
Ty is tall, enby and their hair looks like weed dreds
i don't think i'm anywhere near my right mind
and
i'm not going to be able to be there
but
i do love you very much
